I suffer anxiety, depression, PTSD, dependence disorder, and well I can't seem to leave the house without someone I know and trust with me.
Ouch, that's a lot of bad stuff at once! :/ did all of that build up in time or it happened suddenly?
I hope you get better, I don't know you but you seem to be a good person, so you deserve a good life :) and thank you for the GAs :)
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Well . . . won't go into details but sis and I have had a bad bad childhood so server depression and a lot of that comes from that. The anxiety attacks and isolation started up in February, I don't know why. I just know I break down. I am trying to get help though. Thank you.
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When I've talked to friends who have anxiety attacks and severe depressions, I often hear the same thing, about how they start feeling like they're not worth as much, and underneath it all, there's a gnawing sense of guilt, as if they should be stronger than they are, or as if they're somehow letting others down. But that's of course not true, they're not worth less because of their anxiety attacks, and it's not their fault, they have nothing to feel guilty about. I hope you can convince your inner voices of the same thing, that it's not your fault, that you still have a lot to give, and that you're a good person.
If you ever feel like you need to just talk to someone, or vent about life in general, feel free to just give me a shout.
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Yeah I know those feelings well. Before I really broke I had those. It's hard not to think that way though when you rely on others so much. Family wise I mean and you know they rather not do it at times but do it cause you need it. Okay happy thoughts. ^.^ I just do my best to distract myself from that stuff to be honest.
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Keep working on it. Good job on sharing and open yourself
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That's very touching. Thanks for sharing and go forward, the community here totally supports you.
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I am happy you have found some comfort with this site. That alone shows the positive outlook you have. Some folks focus too much on the negative, you choose not to and that's great!
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Thank you, although I don't know if it's positive, or just one of the things I picked up over the years to try to help me get by. ^.^
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Where is the rant? I came here to read the rant :C
EDIT: Oh it says rambling, not ranting. Sorry, my bad...
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It's very brave of you to post, Lessieal. Fortunately the responses have been supportive so far. I hope you get the help you need. <3
BTW, I'm not really a dog person, but that dog of yours looks so sweet and caring...like she understands. A good pet can help so much in times of need.
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To be honest I was a bit scared. And I have group today I'm about to leave for now. Although I really don't want to go. Sister won't take me so it's dad. I just don't take it well. But thank you. She has her ups and downs but her nature over all is gentle.
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Thank you for the train, and bless you. :) I hope only good things come your way.
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Thank you very much for this and good luck with dealing with the issues you are facing. To many it may seem like nothing that much, but people who either have or know people that have suffered from such, know better. Just keep your head high and go full speed in uncharted territories. Doing what you feel is best, usually helps out on all aspects. I am glad that you are getting more professional help and I hope you will be able to deal with them sooner than you even expected.
A mandatory imaginary hug Good luck and thanks for the train, once again !
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Thank you, btw I love your icon. ^.^ But yeah, usually at home I'm fine, but once out that door away from it . . . I'm trying thought. What makes it hurt more is at times the leader of the group I go to give me this heartbroken look when I share.
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All the best for you, hopefully things will improve for you!
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I hope you will someday overcome those issues. Sending virtual hugs to you :)
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I am really bad when it comes to words, so all I can say is that I wish you all the best and that things would turn around for the better! I am glad you have found something that helps, even if its just a tiny bit! :)
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It's so FLUFFY! I love it! And thank you so much. It reminds me of my Foxy hugs because even though she doesn't look all poofy, she is very soft.
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It is precisely for this reason that i love Steamgifts community. Thank you for sharing your story, it is really brave of you.
I hope you'll get better, and I wish you all the best!
and of course, welcome to my whitelist :3
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Leopards are my favorite! I really wanted a cat to be honest. >.> <.< but I couldn't cause friends and family were allergic. Thank you for your support.
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Nothing left to say, that others haven't already said before. But have a hug!
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We're glad to have you as a part of our community!
I'm also glad you're getting the help you need. It takes courage to realize there are some things you can't do alone in this life, and I salute you for that. It took me years to realize that.
If you haven't already, I would encourage you to take a look at the FAQ and Guidelines, as they often answer alot of questions new users sometimes have. You can find all the information you need about Contributor Level here and here.
Useful guides:
- https://www.steamgifts.com/discussion/o6v2O/a-beginners-guide-to-giveaways-winning
- https://www.steamgifts.com/discussion/4tFef/a-quick-overview-guide-of-sgv2
- https://www.steamgifts.com/about/comment-formatting
Giveaway settings
It's a good practice checking the winner's profile before delivering a gift and, if the winner didn't activate some games, or if he won the same game multiple times, you should request a new winner.
With that said, welcome again and I hope you enjoy your stay here! :D
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Thank you, I'm looking over all the links now. ^.^ I actually shared this site with a few of my online friends after today as well. More for the atmosphere than anything else to be honest. I don't know how you guys did it, but you should be so proud, it's hard to find safe places on the internet.
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I posted the wrong gif before :3
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HI, Lessieal, hope you are doing fine.
First of, let me say that there is no shame in stating that you need help, nor shame in being scared. Shame is on those who judge and on those who do not help, for the true human nature is to protect and help, not the opposite.
I am glad to read that you got a dog, since pets can really really help whenever a person is feeling a bit down.
No matter what you may think - you are brave and you are strong, for you are fighting the fiercest battles, battling your inner demons.
P.S. If you ever feel down, summon me and I shall subject them to inquisition!
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So many true heros on this site. I had found myself growing a bit more cynical over the years but . . . this THIS gives me hope in ways. I always try to do what's right by others, even more than myself at times. Sometimes you get a scar or two . . . and it's hard to keep going. I was waiting for another scar when I posted today, I truly was. Instead I found nothing but warm embrace which in truth, even my family didn't give me for the longest time when it came to these issues. Thank you so much for you kind words and support. I don't think I can truly thank you all enough in fact. I wish there was something I could do.
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Don't you worry about that! :) If I can put only one smile for even a mere second on a face of a person who faces dark times - that is all the thanks I need. Knowing that I helped, if even a little bit, is my greatest reward.
As for your family... I don't know them, but keep in mind that they are just scared, or even confused, of how to approach it. Maybe it seemed to you that they didn't care enough, yet they were just scared to make it worse. You will never know unless you talk to them about it. Words can help more than we think. Words have power.
To some, you will repay with giveaways, to me - just smile...
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The ones who I consider family still are great people. I was raised by my grandparents, but they come from a time you hide stuff like this. You cover and feel shame for it . . . it took years and a very hard break for them to even start to come around a little, to understand. They still . . . well at least they understand a little. My sister who suffers a lot of the same things as me is my one true beacon at times. hugs But all I can truly think to say is thank you.
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I see. Yes, their generation might be different. Either way, I am happy to hear you think of your sister as such.
Now I am going to WL you hugs back and if you ever need me, for talks, support, or whatever reason even if it sounds silly atm, and even though many have probably stated the same already - feel free to add me on Steam and message me or hop in a co op game with me...
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Feel free to message me anytime. ^.^ I tend to have trouble messaging first off and on. But co op is wonderful if you can put up with well how difficult I can be at times. <3
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Will do :) Ah, I have a friend who has anxiety and has that same problem, so I got used to message her first despite the fact that I sometimes don't want to be pushy xD
Haha, no biggie, there's tons of quests to finish and dozens of monsters to slay and there's nothing dificult about you!
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You seems like a nice person
Wish you all the best in your life
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It takes courage to talk about your problems. I hope this is the first step for you to overcome the things you have to deal with.
Best whishes and thanks for the train.
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You're welcome. And thank you. Not sure if I'm as brave as everyone thinks I am. But it's nice to know people have faith in me.
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It does take courage, Lessieal, to open up and share about something so personal, and I'm glad that you feel comfortable enough to do that. You'll find a lot of awesome people here in this community, and I hope that along with friends, family, counselors, etc., it'll help you to find strength and keep going forward every day. :)
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I have found a few just by doing this alone. I've always been an open person, it's my form of shield. Can't hurt me if I scare you away early. As weird as that may sound to some. But when I really get close . . . I can easily get hurt. ^.^; So I hope the friends I make are gentle.
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there are things in life that just wont let us go. some manage to make their peace with the past while others just can't escape it. i always say there is no shame in going for professional assistance when everything is just overwhelming you but i guess you are there already. and if not you definitely should. some demons just can't be faced alone.
whenever i feel restless and like everything is caving in on me i walk the streets of my town at 3 am in the morning. obviously it depends on where you live but in a small town like mine it's like walking on the moon. and sometimes that's just where you need to be.
doesn't hurt to bring your collection of proven epic mood music along to chill out and get your perspective right again. after all most problems are a product of our own mind trying to keep us away from something. may be something good, may be something bad but in the end it just keeps us from changing for the better. if you don't do anything you can't do anything wrong but it doesn't get you anywhere either.
one of my all time favorite late night walking music:
M83 - outro
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cEy4UyYHI0
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Where I used to live I could walk and get out easier. Here there are no sidewalks and we live on a steep hill. I have been forcing myself to sit in the front yard more and watch the dogs play. It's nice, that breath of fresh air helps a lot.
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if you don't mind the dark then do it at night, watch the stars and the moon. i got myself a cheapo telescope some years ago so i can watch what's going on up there. it's always strangely relaxing and calming but exciting as well to see the grander scale of everything and suddenly your worries are just as distant and tiny as all the stars and the craters on the moon.
but that's just what works for me. obviously everybody has their own tricks to keep their feet to the ground when things go awry.
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I LOVE the night best, not so much the mosquitos though. I can't do walks for long anymore, something's wrong with my foot, have had issues for two years now. Can't stand or walk for long periods or I end up in a lot of pain, can't afford to have it looked at. But maybe if we have some bug spray somewhere. We have a plastic chair out there so I have a place to sit at least.
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oh look, another night lover. internet high five!
these little flying pests are the scurge of the earth. summer hasn't even started yet and they are all over the place. even over here in the old world. just disgusting.
sorry about your foot. that needs fixing, after all you will need your feet for a while longer. tempting is it may be at times you can't stay in bed all day long. chair would be ok though. ; )
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Yeah, it gets so bad I borrow my parents cane at times. >.< They tell me to do the riding carts at walmart but I can't it's just to embarrassing. If it wasn't for those bugs I would go out at night more. But in the winter even with a deep cutting chill it's really nice.
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Definitely relatable problems, and I hope you are able to find the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes that light's gonna be real dim, maybe even obscured, and maybe it'll just be a flicker in the dark but I really believe it's there, for everyone.
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There is a few flickers here and there. Sis says she will kidnap me back to Florida. So even if it's a dream there is hope there.
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Hey guys, I just want to say thank you, to each and everyone of you. This site is great, it feels like a safe space for me, which I need during this time in my life. The people here are wonderful and considerate, I even think I made a few new friends.
You see . . . I suffer a few things, and yes I'm getting help for them. Before I go on I want to say I'm not posting this for attention over the issues but more to come out in ways, in case others suffer the same or need a place to post and share as well. Feel free to post below. And please no negative vibes or insults towards each other.
I suffer anxiety, depression, PTSD, dependence disorder, and well I can't seem to leave the house without someone I know and trust with me. I break down in attacks at times, so I'm stuck at home a lot and am currently low on funds. That said this site . . . just browsing or keeping up with the pages, reading you guys thoughts at times. It has really helped me. I'm honestly nervous about posting this, but for some reason, something inside me says I should. Most my friends online don't know how bad I am . . . only a few close ones I have told. But yeah I guess over all I just wanted to say thank you. All of you, for making this site so great.
And a small train. (my first train) It isn't much
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