Not that i was away, i just sorta fell off the wagon, and someone said in a thread i made a few weeks ago, 1 drink doesn't stay with 1 and he was right.
It felt like a nice ending at new years with 2 glasses of cognac from a leftover bottle i found from my deceased dad, which i also felt ruined.
But this time i felt really sick for days and not even so much a gigantic hangover but guilt, depression, enough to make me really quit for good this time, maybe it's better to have a bad taste from it so you won't always have that nagging feeling of a good one.
I just think all the stress got to me.

So yeah i am back a bit since yesterday as in feeling "normal" again, went do shopping getting some bread spread, wastebags, spices, things for my new place (already got a stash of lemonade and toilet paper) so that the movers can bring it with them which saves me some trips on the bike.
Next thursday the moving is gonna start, hope i won't be too long without internet and then some of the stress settling down.

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Unfortunately, traditional medical science has defined success as 100% abstinence in many areas. And a lot of institutions are very judgmental about failure with tones of victim blaming. Setbacks are inevitable. Anything that you do to improve your life or reduce risks, is a success. For some that might just be 1 less cigarette.

Congratulations

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Yeah, it's a standard sentence of doctors don't drink, don't smoke, when i had my first abstinence for a year, i still was blamed for probably drinking because my liver values didn't drop, and i read many similar stories from other people, even doctors saying to them you must be lying.
And also the second time i was clean for a year the values didn't drop, my diabetes went up from 7 to 10 in a line over the years, my cholesterol went up and down, they both let it go on for years, they let me on gliclazide and bam now both are down, i was tested 7,4 today and the nurse was like happy that it hasn't be so low like a very long time.

In a way if you can drink moderately it can relieve some stress which is offcourse also beneficial in the end, but history really learned that i can't.

Thanks.

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Moving can be extra stressful, and hopefully things will settle down for you soon! I don't have much to add, but just echoing what others have already said, it's okay to stumble as long as you get back up again, and that setbacks can happen, and it is very understandable. To acknowledge and also share that takes a lot of courage, and it's great you are feeling better and getting back on track! Welcome back and stay strong! <3

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Yeah and there are actually people that move like each year, i hope to move 1 more time eventually to a real house, to settle for good.
And it's also choosing all this new stuff like a fridge and a washing machine are they quiet enough? They must be affordable, energy friendly and so on.

Thank you <3

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To a brighter future.

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Thank you.

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Welcome back Lugum! Glad you're feeling in a better place ^_^

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Thank you. ^_^

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Welcome back!! And good to know you're finally moving ^^ Good luck with the move, hope you feel nice and cozy in your new home ^^

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Thank you. ^^

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Welcome back! I hope all goes better for you now =)

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Thank you, really hope so too. :)

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welcome back, I hope the move is lightweight!

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Thanks.

There are some 35kg+ things i got to move a bit, and moving the boxes downstairs, technically the movers should do that but i am doing that for them also because of the indoor cats here.
And i want to hold and carry my 2500 euro 25kg pc myself, i just don't trust that to anyone but myself, but for the rest yeah it's up to the movers.
Then my mom got me a washing machine/fridge for the day after, the delivery person will move, install and get it all ready so easy for me. :)

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Furniture and appliances can be taken by a delivery company, but the PC is too risky, I would never leave it in anyone's hands either

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welcome back!
stay strong, good luck with the move!

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Thank you!

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