I think I'm done with discord and twitter forever. Being alone sucks, be people are so not worth it. Relationships are just trading an unequal amount of pain and not much benefit. Loving, or even just liking and caring about people who don't care for you, or at least not as much feels so shit. And I do bad things to people who care about me too, just be all depressing to them and ruin their day, maybe I deserve it.

I just want friends I can hang out and do stuff with, but rarely does anyone ever actively wanna hang out with me and if they let me I just end up being a third wheel. And get to see how much they like another person and not me up close.

So I think I'm going to go back to being alone, 'cause I can handle that as much as it sucks.