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I have that ~~Slam~~ Space Jam double mix song stuck on my head (literally not literally have headset with Slam Jam glued to my head). So uh, thanks person that posted a thread basically dedicated to it. it's gr8, and you deserve all the <3s. I searched the threads for "asdf" for an original thread title, and out of the ~6 things there, they are also gr8. Now onto some more cereal things.

Quarter finals are around the corner, but I'm not worried about them. That probably won't happen until next year or so (I just started college this year). That brings me to the first thing that I want to talk about, age and maturity. I realize that I'm probably an exception of sorts, but the two are not mutually inclusive. Sure, with age you're more likely gain/have more maturity. Although it's highly unlikely, I could be 12, or I could be 57, and the conversation between you and I could be the same. Please don't ask me my age; if I wanted to divulge that, I would've already. I'll just ignore you if you do.

Then there's the same ol' comments. People want to voice their opinion, but when every other comment is a carbon copy of some other, I doubt that most of those comments have any. Why did you even bother making that comment if it's almost the same as the one 3 pages and a week ago? I've contemplated posting a comment x amount of times, and I've (for the most part), always have. Yet for some reason, my activity here has turned from small to minuscule. I've concluded that's because I don't want the attention. I'm a rather introverted and sometimes self-conscious dude.

It isn't easy for me to talk to other people, and the internet doesn't make it easier for me. My sister is a greater example of it, but that's where the similarities end. The concept of "family" feels synthetic and undeserving to me. Why can people like myself receive unconditional affection from my parents, yet other people much more deserving are neglected? The simple answer is that life isn't fair, and I'm not sure if I could give a more complicated answer.

I got to play the Overwatch free weekend, and I had fun (I played a lot of Dva #IsThisEasyMode?). I probably still won't buy it though (even with the Origins Edition being on sale for ~5$ less than the standard version). None of my friends play it, and it doesn't quite scratch my TF2 ~~addiction~~ itch. Speaking of which, my buddy came out of the hospital not too long ago. I'm really glad that he's still alive. Even though I told him that he's a really important person in my life, I don't think he realizes how far that statement goes. Him and my father are probably the only two people that give me the feeling that life is worth living. I'm not trying to make it sound like I'm depressed; I'm far from it, but that discussion is for a different thread for if/when I feel like talking about.

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I also wanted to thank everyone. Whether I've won, traded, invited, or anything else related to SG. This thread doesn't mean my minuscule presence here will transcend to nonexistence; just that it probably won't improve. I can't say if I'll respond to any of your comments, but thanks.

The two games are Broforce and Styx.

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7 years ago*

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jenoer

I have asperger syndrome but have reached an age where I learned enough to hack myself through most social contact on a daily level.
Once I figured out what emotions are common in various situations, regardless of how these emotions are formed and regardless of how I should interpret them I have a list of responses ready that fit in with most situations.
The best response to any emotion is simply listening, you listen to someone, say you understand, even if you don't most of the time and offer an alternative view, mostly that it could be worse, and point out the positive side of things.
In general this leads to most people saying I'm a wonderful listener and analyzer of situations. But in a lot of cases people tell me they don't understand how I can be so black-and-white about things. Or simply tell me I'm an asshole for not understanding these emotions.

Love and affection however is a complicated matter for me.
For example, I have a fiance (yeah, I'm still very surprised I reached this level in society, pretty proud about this one), and I love her more than anything, she is the only person that comes close to understanding how my brain works, however, I don't know if the definition of love is the same for both of us.
For me, I can only describe love as "Tolerating each others imperfections", but for her it seems like it comes from a part of in her brain that she cannot clearly access or describe.

Online however, I feel like I can be myself, I'm just a username with a random picture without any history attached to it.
That's why I feel comfortable writing this to you, on a public forum. I would never tell anyone in my family that "I tolerate their imperfections" while they give me "unconditional love".
I also learned a lot in my teenage years about emotions and social contact on the internet, without it, it would have taking me much longer to learn simple things such as when you have a conversation you have to look someone in their eyes (or between them if it's too much to handle).

To be honest, at this point I don't exactly know why I'm responding with all the text above. All I want to show you perhaps, is that there are more people around which have a hard time with the social side of life and that I hope it brings you comfort knowing this.
Then again, it might also be that I try to make people understand how my brain works because almost none do and I still live with this emotion that something is very wrong with me and that I'm not part of any group or label that everyone seems to want to be in so much.

Or maybe just a bit of both :]

Take care thecrzyguy, may life's mysteries unravel for you in the coming years.

7 years ago