Dear SteamGifts community,

I'm sad to announce that I have made the decision to step down from creating / maintaining bundle threads starting 01 Jan 2025.
I am not quitting SteamGifts, but I will remain active only through comments and giveaways.


This might seem sudden for you, but it’s a decision I reached after lengthy consideration. For seven years, I’ve been the main person to create bundle threads and I would have probably been able to continue for many more, if not for some external factors that were out of my control.

2024 was one of the more difficult years of my life. I’ve continuously been the target of online harassment and untruthful / unfounded accusations, in many of these cases without a way for me to disprove them. I considered explaining myself many times, but past experience shows that those who seek to harm me aren’t looking for an explanation, and anything I dare to say in my defense would only be twisted into even worse lies. It’s understandable that without opening up and showing my side of the story, some of you might have negatively changed your opinion about me. This was a risk I knowingly took, as the least bad of the two options.

Seven years of doing bundle threads is a long time and aiming to keep these bundle threads as informative as possible and posting them close to the bundle launch time required a lot of sacrifices on my part. My sleep was the first one to be affected, as trying to be online when a bundle might (not necessarily would) launch often meant cutting down on my sleep, shifting the flow of my entire day (thus affecting the schedule of my family and friends too) or even scheduling trips in order to accommodate bundle threads as much as possible, all that not even knowing the bundle schedule in advance, as this is rarely made public. Obviously, no one forced me to do so, but in regards to bundle threads, I always wanted to give my best, and for me that meant first and foremost creating the thread as soon as possible, especially in the Humble BTA era - a habit that I continued even after it, throughout the years. Balancing bundle threads and work never was (and still isn't) an easy thing but at least it improved my ability to handle multiple mental tasks at the same time.

Aside from bundle thread creation, additional time went into maintaining these threads too: reading all the comments & continuously updating threads with the information you guys kindly share (coupons, subs, free DLC to claim, out of stock items, etc.). Together with my daily activities on Barter.vg (syncing this information between the two platforms was primarily done by me), these ate a significant chunk of my free time, similar to an unpaid part-time job. I’ve never received any monetary compensation for it, and I never wanted any compensation in the first place. My reason for doing this was always to help the two communities and keep the information as comprehensive as possible. It’s the kind of work that would be boring for most people, and get even more repetitive over the years, but I’m the kind of person who derives satisfaction and a feeling of stability from doing the same thing over and over again. I've always struggled to find my place in this world, but bundle threads (and Barter to some extent) gave me the feeling of contributing to society in a way that suited me.

Looking back at all these, I realized that a change is long overdue, as scary as that change might be. Firstly, due to the current online harassment situation, being a public person brings me more harm than I am willing to accept. Needless to say, I shouldn’t let myself be affected by what others think of me or say about me. To some extent I can do that but there’s still a line when too much hostility actually becomes… simply too much. Secondly, I’d like to allocate this time to something else. I’m not yet sure what that will be, for now I will keep myself open to possibilities and see what life has in stock for me.

As I step down from making bundle threads on SteamGifts, I also step down from Barter.vg. I’ve been the go-to person for most things on Barter during the past ~9 years, dealing with pretty much anything that was needed at the time when it was needed, filling every gap when there was no one else willing to do so. That may have made people mistaken me as an admin having full authority on Barter, and as a natural consequence, I attracted a certain amount of hate regarding some decisions that were taken during the recent years, while in reality those decisions were not mine to take. I’ve been held culpable and blamed for things that I didn’t even do. Different user groups have directly accused me of the exact nasty behavior that they themselves engage in, to justify the very same, and intentionally kept spreading those lies about me.

Much like SteamGifts, Barter.vg works solely on a volunteer-basis, with people assuming certain roles temporarily and performing them whenever they see fit or when their time allows. Without someone to be there when no one else is available or as a backup for them, Barter data (bundles, giveaways, items, notices) will probably see a decrease in consistency in the near future. At the moment of writing this, I can’t tell in what way the platform will change (or if it will in any way). Its future and shape is still in talks with the admin because there are several other factors to consider.

I’ll end this huge wall of text by expressing my heartfelt gratitude to all of you who supported me throughout the years. You were the reason for which I was able to continue doing this for so long. Thank you for the laughs we had together, for keeping the discussions on the bundle threads drama-free, for helping each other (and me) by answering questions, submitting region lock information, prices in different currencies and correcting my mistakes. Going forth, I hope you will show the same kindness and support to the people who will step up and continue doing this work.


🚂🚂🚂 A little train of various little indie games 🚂🚂🚂

4 hours ago*

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Thanks for all, sensualshakti.

3 hours ago
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Acum doar cateva zile s-a intamplat ce s-a intamplat cu icaio, acum apari si tu cu stirea asta.. ce se intampla cu SG!? M-ai ajutat cu munca ta ani la rand... mi-e greu sa cred ca o sa mai faca cineva o treaba atat de buna si de prompta ca tine (vorbesc doar de SG pentru ca barter am folosit foarte putin).. Multumesc mult, pentru tot! Puteam sa jur ca cineva te plateste sa faci asta.. nu ca ar fi fost un lucru rau sa o faca, ba din potriva, dar cu atat mai socant sa aflu ca de fapt, tu o faceai doar din pasiune. Imi pare rau sa aud ca a trebuit sa suporti bullying, cand tu doar "pompai" ore peste ore in mod voluntar doar ca sa ajuti comunitatea.. Sper sa te ajute acum, in mica masura, sa stii faptul ca eu am folosit si apreciat mereu munca ta, in mare parte in tacere.

Ma bucur ca o sa te mai vad pe-aici.

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+1

3 hours ago
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Thank you for all your excellent work! I can imagine how hard it is to have a life and maintain this bundle madness, all at the same time. If you enjoyed doing it before, that's great. But if it's harming you now, it's perfectly natural to move away from it. I'm sure most of the people are grateful for all your contributions over the years, like I am.

3 hours ago
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Thank you for your work, your posts will be missed.

3 hours ago
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Sad you will stop but very glad we had you for this job, we will miss you and really hope everything will work out for you!

3 hours ago
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Hey, I know you for 3 years now. I never expected you'd get any kind of hate for the amount of help you've provided me and others throughout the years. It's gonna be a lot emptier and less informative without you around, but I understand that at some point or another everything needs to come to an end. I have to say I have really enjoyed your polls. I've not said much, but they were very creative and funny. Thank you for all the hard work, patience, time spent in making all this possible. I have and will forever respect your hard work. I hope you and your family find things to do together. Get the well deserve break. You've earned it!

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I certainly understand that these trolls and harassers aren't exactly motivating. I remember the events here and how frustrating especially one character was, even without myself being their target. I can't imagine how it must have been in your position.

3 hours ago
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Thank you for those amazing lists through the years o7.

3 hours ago
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Truth be told, I expected this. Not now, tho, but it doesn't hit me from left field.

So let me give you a big and heartfelt "Thank you!", Lily. Your bundle threads were the anchor that kept me here at SG in the last years. If nobody takes up your workload or can't deliver the same quality that you did, I am pretty sure I will leave this site for good.
Your threads were that important to me.
Thank you for all your hard work in the last years, as I already have told you several times. I really appreciate what you did for this community.

Considering her, ...
I will finish the sentence via Steam chat :)

3 hours ago*
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I know nothing about the online drama thing but every bundle post you made (except DIG) was helpful and the polls were fun. You'll be missed.

3 hours ago
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Thank you for your work. Steamgifts and Barter will never be the same without you.

3 hours ago
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Oh, this is a bit sad BUT I'm happy that you'll have more free time for yourself, less stress and more new stuff to try and focus on. Honestly I always admired you, because you posted about every bundle so fast and it was detailed too.

Multiple times I thought "there's no way, that there's only one person behind 'sensualshakti' profile on Steamgifts, they possibly can't manage that many threads and bundles everyday" and yet you did.

Thank you so so much for your dedication to helping community and for your hard work.

See you around hopefully, maybe with new types of threads? "Crocheting is fun" (it is, but it looks horrible when done by me) or "How to bake the best gamer cookies"?

Please take care :)

3 hours ago
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Bump for solved!

3 hours ago
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Thank you for your contributions, I will never forget that purple love heart. Don't be put off by a few toxic comments, value the words of those who love you and offer fair criticism. I hope you are well rested. Let's get together again in SG.

3 hours ago
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thank you for your great contribution to this community and good luck for the future!

3 hours ago
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Oof, that's another punch in the gut. Your shoes will be almost impossible to fill. Thank you for your years of work and dedication, Lilly! And I am sorry you have to endure so much nastiness. You are and always will be a legend, one of the pillars of SG. I wish you all the best and may you find fulfilment in your future endeavours!

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thank you for everything, you truly went above and beyond for a lot of the info, and it sucks you had to deal with harassment.

3 hours ago
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Thank you for all of your hard work. Sorry to hear about the harrasment. Take your well derserved rest <3 You went above and beyond and I greatly appreciated everything you have done.

3 hours ago
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I don't know your situation but from this post of yours, and you seem to need a break from the work and the stress on the site.
People come, people go, somebody will fill the gap on the site, but you really need to concentrate on you.
Thanks for being around during so much :)

3 hours ago
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Thanks for your contributions!

3 hours ago
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Well, I really appreciate the effort you put in the humble bundle threads, because that made it easier to give away the games. Now it's going to be much harder to figure out region locks and stuff. Thanks for the years of community service o7 .

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Thank you sensualshakti
Thank you, and thank you, and thank you, and thank you for every single thread you have created just to help. If I started writing thank you for every single thread, I would still be here tomorrow saying thank you.

💙

Thank you for all your hard work all this time.

2 hours ago
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thank you for your hard work for all these years!

good luck! 🍀

2 hours ago
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Thank you for all the hard work over the years, your bundle threads will be dearly missed <3

2 hours ago
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Thank you for everything Lilly. You have brought order to chaos for so long. Hard to imagine SG Deals without you! I'm glad you will be staying on SG, at least.

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