Why?

Think of it this way. You say your life sucks, there is ALWAYS someone worse off than you. I'm older, not saying, have NEVER had a chance for a love life, have NEVER had one good day, EVER!, I have only 1 or 2 RL friends. I've become just shy of an agoraphobic.

Yet at least I have a place to live, the minimal means to put food on my plate despite having no job and possibly being one of thoe soon that might never find a job. (Especially if Trump wins)

At least you aren't living in a poverty stricken third world nation that has nothing at all.

I don't think it's wrong to chose your time of death, though I think it's unwise to make that choice prematurely.
For instance, someone who's terminally ill truly has no prospects ahead of them, so if they want to end things on their terms, I think that makes logical sense. But if you're not in that position, and especially if you friends or family who care for you, then ending your life not only achieves nothing for you, but it's going to devastate the people who care about you as well. Or at least, that was my reason for not going through with it.

I'm sorry you feel so down, but you know 30 is not really old and beside that if you feel that you have nothing to show it's never too late to change that. I'm 36 and I'm finishing school soon, it wasn't easy to go back, but I'm happy I did it. Of course it doesn't need to be anything that big. Sometimes just changing one little thing that might not seem to make such an impact in your life can makes a big difference over time as one thing lead to another. I think the worst thing to do when you feel like that though is to just sit alone at home with your feeling so if nothing else try to find someone you can talk too and if you don't have anybody don't hesitate to send me a friend request on Steam, I'd be happy to listen to you if you need to talk:) I always feel better after talking it out.

Stay strong, it will get better even though it feels like forever sometimes...

Sounds like you're struggling with depression... I'm at that point too, but I'm slowly recovering with meds and therapy. I'd advise you to do the same if you can...

Welcome to my whitelist :)

It's not easy this life. Not talking about work, feelings, etc... but our way of thinking life.
Because work, with effort we can all get something to live the minimum. If we really want more we study the right areas (not like me that got out of university and the max i can get is a job winning 150e... But there i defend one thing, we have one life if we don't make what we want now we will never do it so f*ck it). Love: treating others with respect can bring the most amazing feelings in life. It's amazing the way a person can love us if we give a chance and the things we can feel. And yes is not that hard to find amazing people, we all hear crazy stories but when people are with others that say love you on first date or is the body that matters or can't openly speak 100% about everything, AND I MEAN 100% about all our insecurities, ofc things don't get to the magic point that only some get.

The big problem is when we are already conscious that we are just a peace of meat in this world and is just a matter of time until we go away. It can become really hard to live, to find motivation to go further or to let someone get in our life. When i was younger i remember to just not care about anything because since very soon i realized that i would go away at some point and it didn't matter what i did in life. So ofc i would never kill myself when we only have one life and i was so young with a family that loves me so much, but i just couldn't find motivation for anything. So i just lived and keep living. I took every chance at love, at traveling, saw amazing stuff, met incredible people but still after all conversations, after everything that i saw in life, my mind never changed and i keep feeling without any motivation to do more. There is a way to feel comfortable in life even thinking like that but you need to know what is the thing that would give you more comfort in life? Some people need work, some people need a family, other live happily alone, others travel, watch/read/play the more they can, drink, drugs, sport everyday...

Today with 25 i can see perfectly your point of view and i don't find any problem in people killing themselves when they want (if they don't hurt anyone around) but we need to think that we really only live once and do we want to go so early? So much stuff to try, just kill your routine if you have one and do something different to see if something change, if you feel another way, if something excites you...

You will be fine <3

As was said before, try to find something to make life worth it to you. It doesn't matter what others say about it. Carry on and I'm sure at some point you'll find something that makes you happy, even if it's a really small thing. (For me, music can cheer me up good, but then again, I have a pretty good life so far)

28th of March 2014. I was feeling the same, I even set myself a date when I'm gonna finish with myself. After that things went even worse. I didn't see any good coming my way. I've broken up with a girl I was in relationship at that time. Got frustrating job. But I've decided to do sth for myself, sth I alwayes wanted to do and I've signed up for the improv classes. I always thought I am not funny enough nor bright to perform on a scene but it turned out I actually am very talented. I'd never know if I wouldn't try it. Then I've learned from improv things I've started to use in real life. They worked, just imagine. I've started to appreciate my fails cos there's always sth great from them if you stay focused and it payed off. I've completely changed my point of view - I was thinking about living NOW. Making my "partners" on life scene look good and comfortable alongside me. I've let myself doimg mistakes cos after all they always teach you something good. I began smile more. Be more spontaneus. That's how I met my current gf. It was a series of mistakes and bad (and often crazy) decisions I wouldn't do again. But the thing is I was doing. You have to do. Think less, do more.
28th of March 2015. I had my first date with my current girlfriend. A gf from my dreams (literally). I am happy. One year and things were upside down. Who'd knew? Hard to believe now I've seen only shit coming my way.
Dates are real. I even have them written down in notes on my old mobile.

If you hit the bottom you can't go any lower. Go up.

I know that feeling when you got unlucky at some point then many.. many bad things happen to you at same time
Life is never easy or even fair :(
Rich people will get richer and poor people well get poorer

Maybe.. Set something to be your goal?
That'll give you courage and some power to live a good life

Dishonored 2. That is why.

Well I don't realy know the answer to your question, but that's because I still didn't figure it out. Probably I'm lost as much as you are now, with the same view of life, I think the only difference betwen you and me is the age, but I'm not to far from you. So far, the only thing that makes me keep going is hope, hope that someday everything will fit and get right !

http://static.fjcdn.com/pictures/For+anyone+going+through+difficult+times_224ed3_5150686.jpg

This was the pic that made me think about that. I thought you may like it as much as I, since this was at gave me hope in life.

Hurry up!!

Most were already written, but here some (unwise) words from me. Take yourself a break. I mean, you don't have to have something to show, you don't have to make something special. If you're not ready to overcome your fears - give yourself a time. Live isn't about doing the best, it's more about doing the best you can at the moment. Being almost 30 isn't the end, it's still merely the beginning.

And rephrase the question: is there enough reason to die already? And what keeps you alive? Because it certainly is a powerful force.

Well we're talking to a cow of darkness, what is everyone expecting in this thread?
What I learnt is that happiness is a choice, maybe that will help you somehow~

cheer up :3
find something you want/like, and try to do or get it. for some reason i'm happy today, maybe it's the pills i took or because i got paid for a project i've been working for weeks, or something else.

do you work out? if not you should try running a bit, or just doing some gym at home. exercising always helps, put some music, a movie, or just relax your mind.

and you don't need to have goals or anything, just live the present and enjoy whatever nice things you achieve or get.