My condolences. I wish you well and hopefully you will get over this sad period successfully.
Maybe dont concentrate on the mess that was left behind and remember him fondly while you grief and there might come time when dealing with stuff left behind will be easier and wont associate bad feelings with him. Stay strong
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Such a hard time to face. Wishing you all best, and strength.
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sorry to hear.......
i have lost someone who was so important to me by cancer so i feel you
sorry for your loss
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My condolences and my empathy. I have lost many friends and relatives over the years. (It is a side-effect of getting older.) Some of them went quickly, some of them took many painful years to die. I hope that you have compassionate people in your life who will do what they can to support you, but they are not the main part of your story. You are. Life happens. What makes us who we are is how we choose to deal with the life we are given. That said, it is helpful to keep a few things in mind.
You have friends and well-wishers, here. I hope you find value in what we have written.
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I am sorry for your loss. How fast it were at the end is a bit scary.
It's good that you aren't completly alone and have a bit distance to the house with all the memories. That allow you, at least partly, to reduce the memories that come up all the time and let you, at least partly, "relax" the mind for a few minutes or maybe a hour.
After the tough time before and now it will get better and better and you will realise how strong you were from all that suffering and pain.
Maybe try to remember at the good times and that each end is a new begin.
If you want to talk or write, you know that i am always at the "other end" only one click away.
Stay strong.
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Baby steps, that's all I can do.
I think you're stronger than you realize for already recognizing this. No step is too small.
Take your time sorting through his possessions; you'll get there. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. Just remember that us folks on SG are rooting for you and that we're here if you need us.
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I'm very sorry to read this. You will recover. And know there's no correct way to deal with everything you are going through, so don't let others try to rush you or push you in ways you don't feel ready for.
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I feel for you and I'm sorry you lost the man you loved. I get the anger and the grief and the overbearing sadness of it all and I know it's useless to go on about how time heals but I do hope with more time you will manage to look past the last two years to the good times and that you will be able to look forward again.
Take care of yourself.
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I am saddened to read this. You have my sympathies and deepest condolences. I hope that you can find things to take joy in--or at least smile about--sooner than later, as smiling can make even the worst day seem not quite so bad. Please take care and don't try to do too much at once--take it in little pieces. You have friends here for when you need or want to talk.
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I am so sorry for your loss and the ongoing struggles that the deceased leave behind them. I hope that you continue to reach out to others and receive their support during this time. There is no wrong way to grieve, and I hope that you find whatever it is that you need to cope and heal from this tragedy. Best of luck to you and know that the community is here for you, even if all you need is a friendly ear.
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I'm really sorry to hear that, sad news indeed.
As hard as it is, try to take care of yourself in this difficult time. I'm sure it feels constantly overwhelming with how much there is to do, but give yourself time - if everything doesn't get done immediately, it'll be okay. Take the time you need to heal and recover.
I wish you the best.
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I'm sorry for your loss and most of all I hope that you can get back up, as many times as you get knocked over!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFuFm0m2wj0&vl=en
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It is right you post here and tell us your feeling and story. Just let it all out and release the emotion, to cry, shout, laugh...whatever you need it to. I can't imagine what I'd feel and go through if I lost someone I love. I'm sorry for you. Just be strong and stay safe.
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You are probably aware that I tend to go AWOL for long periods when life gets too rough on me.
And it has been rough to hellish the last couple of years.
I already posted over at Steam at my favorite groups to let people know, but I never could pull myself together enough to post here too.
Until now, I guess.
Although my husband didn't want to admit it, the cancer was slowly getting the upper hand.
Which isn't too surprising as he had forfeited on all mainstream medical treatment and put all his belief in an incredible quack treatment that was really insane.
He went to a hospice on April 8th, the nurses that gave him home care the last couple of months had tried in vain to convince him to come to the hospice.
He refused, cause that was the end of the line, that meant he was going to die.
He had so many plans and projects still going, things he still wanted to do etc. Some of them also insane, over the top and incredibly expensive.
But at least he tried to make the most of the time that was left.
By the time he finally agreed to hospice care there wasn't much left of him.
I wish it would have been easier to talk to him, to talk to him and with him about the reality of him slowly dying of cancer.
It wasn't possible, he pushed me away, he pushed reality away.
I could go on and on about what happened the last couple of years, but I am slowly getting to the point that in the end it's all water under the bridge. And it's just so incredibly sad that we both suffered so much.
My husband enjoyed his stay in the hospice, the volunteers there were all so nice to him and gave him such loving care.
He didn't get to enjoy it very long.
April 12th, on Easter he died.
I am hoping he's at peace now, cause the last couple of years he suffered tremendously.
I've basically been a basket case the last month.
Still there was a funeral to arrange and somehow I managed to pull it off.
Now it's time to heal, heal from the injury inflicted on me and heal from the pain and injury I sustained myself by not being able to break the pattern I was in, not being able to abandon my husband. It's complicated and it's a mess.
My husband also left me with a humongous mess to deal with, sort out and try and sell off.
I grief, I mourn, I am angry, I am exhausted, I am a bloody mess.
I need to take baby steps to stay afloat, to allow for some self mending but there's also a ton load of shit stuff to deal with.
The stuff my husband bought, collected, the unfinished projects: that's a bloody mess too!
I have a temporary place to live, which is great and much needed! Cause my house kind of exploded with all the bought stuff and the hoarding/collecting mania my husband developed.
Baby steps, that's all I can do.
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