Apologies and Thanks

Those I want to apologize to the most have already moved on from this life. Never take anything or anyone for granted. That's the lesson I've learned for being an ass in my younger years.

I have a chronic health issue that sometimes causes me a lot of pain. When I have been in pain for a while I get quite intolerant. I apologize to those I have been sorry with our rude to.

I'm thankful for things like cats. I'm sorry for things that aren't cats.

I'm sorry to everyone I've held close in my life. I can be a really miserable person to be around with my bipolar mood swings. I'm sorry to everyone I have isolated myself from who cared about me, "just because I thought they'd be better off with not associating with me". I always end up isolating myself down to 1 or 2 people that I really care about who I love to give all my time to but with my emotions being all over the place, I'm a lot to deal with. I'm sorry that I used to always go back and forth between "you are my favorite person and I love spending time with you" to "You should leave me because I'll only drag you down". Lately I've been getting a lot better at controlling it but I can't take back everything I've done and all the people I lost through that attitude.
I'm sorry for relationship I ruined. I don't mean the things I said and I didn't think before I had said them. Now you've been distancing yourself from me and I don't know how long this will last. I guess I'd like to thank you for making me realize how unacceptable my actions were but actually thanking you would be worthless since you only reacted the way you did after I broke you down so much.
I'm sorry to everyone that I have dragged down who has cared deeply about me. Everyone who has entered my life caring that much, has left with depression and anxiety and paranoia that all stemmed from me.
The one person I never got to thank and apologize to was my ex. I had been with him for two and a half years and it took me a year after our break up to realize just how big of an impact he had made on my life and I wish I would have noticed sooner. I also wish I could thank him for all the times that he was patient enough to deal with me because he has seen me at the absolute worst points and was there for the most part.
I'm sorry to all the best friends I've lost in my life that I just... one day up and left. You guys had cared about me for years and I eventually just threw it all away and gave you no way to figure out why. It was never your fault, I think I just had an urgent want for a change in environment and just forced myself to move on. I'm sorry that I don't feel more regret over it. I just hardened my heart to you guys after a while and I regret doing that to such nice people but at the same time, if you were to give me the chance to fix what I've done... I'd give you an apology but other than that, I have no desire to go back. Thank you for not hating me too much over it.
-side note- Sorry I made such a long post, really every morning I wake up, I figure out new reasons to just apologize to people from the past and really, I could write books filled with all the apologies I should have made.

Thank you, Kevin, my husband, for being my pillar. You are my world.

Thank you, Talia, my little corgi, for being my little ray of sunshine.

Thank you, SG Support staff for doing what you do and putting up with a ton of bullshit along the way.

Thank you, jbondguy for that one time I said I only live for the few people who care about me and you randomly said you care. You don't know me and you didn't have to say that but you did and that was very kind and sweet of you.

I'm sorry for now wanting to discuss the things I'm sorry about.

Thanks jbondguy for letting me express this very specific feeling.

Not apologizing for being this perfect.
Not thankful because no one here can appreciate a very healthy dose of vanity.

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I'm sorry Ms. Jackson

I want to say sorry to that pigeon from yesterday which was blocking my way and i used my car's horn to scare away. I know it was scary..i should have been more considerate...i'm sorry ,buddy!

Thanks Steam and SG for everything!! I am not sorry for anything at all.

Thanks

Thanks for all the drama that i can read :D
Sorry.. for... dunno.. something i might have done wrong.. like...i really care.... .. maybe...

Legends has it that the number of comments is directly proportional to the blacklists you will receive.
So I APOLOGIZE for commenting a little more than usual...

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Just a simple bump.
I apologise for not being able to think about anything constructive due to extreme tiredness xD

I deeply apologize for the rubber glove incident and I swear and promise it shall not happen again.

Sorry, I am just here to bump

Jbond please forgive me, if I ever offended you :(

Thank you for being there to play and roleplay with me :P

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I'm thankful for every win and wanna apologize for not playing some of them right away, I'm terrible at time management and more often than not obstructed by mundane RL things like work and family ;>, but don't you worry or be too disappointed in me, sooner or later I'll play them all, promise :3.

Additional thanks to all the great people I've met in life and an even bigger thanks to all my fuckwits and asshats out there for making life so much more entertaining :].

I apologize for the mess i'm making in your life.

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I'm thankful for game bundles, you make the cheapskate in me happy beyond belief
and i shall spread the word of bundle wherever i go.
I'm thankful i found the sg community, i remember my immediate thought was "wow this is actually a genuinely nice community".

I'd also like to thank Mille( she deserves more carrots! ) and anyone else who makes bundle charts,
allowing me to be more lazy which is always a win.

Thank you Netflix for providing an easy way to watch all my shows in HD, long are the days of me scouring the internet
for video links( except when you don't have it Netflix, then i'm pirating and don't feel sorry because i'm already paying for you).
also thanks Netflix for all the great Netflix originals you create, 8/10 times i'm gonna enjoy it, we need TrollHunters season 2 ASAP!

goes without saying, thanks parents, you may not be perfect but i loves you and you loves me and i guess
i love my older brother even though i absolutely hate him.

Thanks all my irl friends for being there and holding sociable events which i can participate in, you all can be dicks
but i've seen enough to know you are genuinely nice people, also thanks for laughing at my stupid antics

A special thanks to my best friend who was so genuinely nice and weird like me, that i couldn't help but open up when i met him
and just talk freely without worrying about saying something i'd regret.
It's easy to sit on the sidelines and judge everyone but at least they are actually talking freely and being themselves.

I'd like to thank all my past experiences good and bad( maybe especially the bad ) for shaping me into the
person i am today who is open-minded, sceptical, weird and nice because i can say that despite my
flaws( of which there are many ) i still think i am awesome sauce and that ladies and gentlemen is my topping of choice

to my future self, i'm sorry i always leave university work to the last minute, i just find it
really really boring and then the procrastination runs through my veins, there's always something i'd rather be doing
but i guess i can try just sucking it up and enduring the inevitable boredom

and now an obligatory apology to potato for i did not know your greatness until it was too late, thou am not worthy
to bathe in your rays of sunshine and potatoey goodness, forgive me please

EDIT: sorry to my friend, i overslept and missed our tennis session today, i'll 1.v.1 you tommorow

Baruch HaShem for giving me the strength to survive my vile disease so that I can honor Him and His glorious kingdom for as long that my soul returns to my body when I wake up.

I'd like to thank the 119 random strangers who stuck me on their whitelist. I have no real idea how I earned that, most of the time I'm too busy shitposting, playing "guess the game" or trying to trick people into watching Dokuro-chan. or hiding giveaways in random posts

I apologize to the 19 people who stuck me on their blacklist. Again I have no real idea how I earned that, but I assume it's for a good reason. Like shitposting too much, or successfully tricking you into watching Dokuro-chan. seriously though: don't watch that unless you think you have a twisted sense of humor

Sorry for being lewd T.T Thanks for not BL my lewdnes

Even though it was nine years ago, every once in awhile (mostly on depressing, rainy days like the one right outside my window at the moment) I'm sorry that I didn't get to really say goodbye to my dad before he died. I was seventeen and irrationally angry that he was letting cancer take him, and I just refused to talk to him until he got better. Even though I knew he wouldn't. And I'm sorry we never got to do the paddleboats at the pond next to the zoo, and that we'll never go to baskin robbins together again, and that we didn't get to see rise of the silver surfer together, and that he'll never meet whoever it is I end up marrying or hold my kids. I'm just sorry.

But I'm thankful that he was there. That he rescued me and my mom from an abusive situation. That he went to the trouble to legally adopt me, because he loved me so much. That he taught me what to look for in a guy. That he taught me how to mow the yard. That he taught me how to tinker around with computers. That he let me win that race up the playground at seaworld when i was eight, cuz he knew I'd been training myself the whole year for that climb. That he fought off the cancer just enough to go to my senior homecoming game with me. A former elementary school teacher of mine told me she was so surprised to see me so happy to get a new dad. That's cuz he was the best dad ever, and while I miss him alot I'm grateful he was there for me for those ten years.

.......I'm also thankful for the stuff I've won here from various people. So there's that, too.