Are you ok? That description is a little concerning.

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every day is a new beginning.

Life does indeed suck, but keep fighting the good fight and hopefully in time it all feels worth it.

Hey buddy, I hope you are working through whatever is going on at the moment. There are people here reaching out if you need. Sending my love mate. :)

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I want you to know that depression can be caused simply by eating wrong food, lacking meat, fats, eating too much of processed food, sugar is the biggest enemy here, you can have it from fruits... Try eating cooked oats - oatmeal with 1 banana for a breakfast, just make sure to have enough water intake to prevent constipation (which happens if eat oats without enough water) and also try to eat more animal fats and eggs for example, but in that case, be physically active to avoid cholesterole... It is safe as long as you are active, that is how I see it. Btw I suffer depression, anxiety and even mild psychosis, so trust me, it gets better as soon as you figure out that all around us is harmfull.... Sodas... Coffee... Even chocolate and cacao powder. It worsens anxiety... If you are male, you need to boost testosterone to reduce depression, do that by eating eggs, meat and frying food in pork saturated fat, but pls be physically active and balance your diet, change it slowly. Eat for health, not for taste. Also after eating salts you must drink water to prevent dehydratation. I am Dr. Danger on Steam currently, added you.

Also, about your current name... You don't want to feel nothing, it is the worst feeling ever, so yea, feeling of nothing is a feeling and it makes you feel helpless, lost, you basically forget who you are, even though you know, as an information, but you lose sense of identity and if it lasts too long, you will maybe never be able to bring back the true self, and without true self there is no one to love inside you, you cannot love a new identity that rapidly replaced the old one, you even start hating yourself... So be careful what you wish for. When emptiness comes, you just want to slow down the time, depression becomes delusional, time goes so fast, your memory gets worse, it is like being trapped in some limbo, living a nightmare where nothing feels real and it is like being an alien, heck, even emotions are hard to be recognized, so humans seem like a robots to you, and if you are strong like I am (had no choice but to be) then you are able to witness all that, and deep down you suffer more, cause sadness is part of life and emptiness is more of a death if you ask me... Just try to locate the problem before it is too late, don't let others destroy you mentally and stand for yourself, eliminate toxic people from your life and eat healthy, avoid sugary foods, but take sugar from fruits... Currently I am experimenting by eating more pork fat, since I am not eating meat often because of financial situation, so I will keep you updated on my progress and we will see how you can progress.

Thank you!