And never let me go. Hold me in your arms. 'Cause I need you so.

Thanks.

Well the weird thing is after i visited the phsyio therapist a second time and i get these leaflets on how to sit on the toilet, breathing exercises (which are a bit vague to me) is that i also noticed my gaming chair the backseat, was perhaps a bit too comfortable and i turned it more to a 90 degree angel and immedately the leaking has lowered in amount, it's not over but perhaps that's a matter of taking time to heal something that lasted a year, also the way i go to the toilet immediately has changed.
At the moment not only there, but many aspects in my life things starting to feel like switches are turned off and on, changes in behavior, i haven't been "myself" more and more too.

Note i also been to the doctor in the mean time to get my blood sugar tested, and it was kinda high at 13,9 a peak for me, enough for me to ponder if it doesn't affect me mentally and physically too, and i am open to get my medicine changed but the diabetes nurse doesn't say let me consult with a doctor or something, again i feel they just let me.