I missed your cake day D-Mouse :(
Fun fact: I registered a couple of weeks later than you :D ...but you are already a full level ahead of me :P
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I didn't want to do this, I'm not doing this for "attention" but yeah, I've run out of places to turn to be completely honest.
Mental illness is not a joke, its not a drama, its not something to be taken lightly. If ANYONE is feeling down, worthless or at worst suicidal. Just know that you really aren't alone and there are people out there that are battling with you. This place was once a place to escape the shit that came with daily life. It now has become an added stress that isn't healthy.
I just want to say, if anyone ever feels like they can't handle things any more, i am open to talking. No giveaway, this is more important than games or gaming in my eyes. Just stay strong, even if you feel like the world is against you or nothing you do is ever good enough. Its going to get better at some point, somewhere down the line.
I don't care who you are, what shit is happening to you, if you think I hate you. You are not alone.
Yeah, thats all I guess.
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FYI: About how I fight depression
So I ended up a 2 year relationship a few months ago, that was my alltime record with someone! And I won't lie, even if I was the one who took the final decision to end it I was about 4-5 days depressed with thoughts of "great, now I will never find someone else who tolerates me since I have a shitty temper, nerd hobbies and hate most of the mainstream fun around here (getting drunk, doing drugs, going to dance reggaeton and other latino music...)", even the classic "fuck it, I will die alone like the piece of shit that I am".
But you know what Thread? I didn't allow me to dwell in those toxic thoughts more than 1 or 2 minutes, every time I started feeling like that I just became angry and said in my mind or outloud "NO! Fuck it, no one knows the goddamn future, who the fuck cares anyway?". I encourage you to do the same every time those negative thoughts kick in, we should kill them where they stand! Not even 10 second of life time per nasty thought!
Personal shit you might not be interested in:
Anyway, everything went down the night of a Friday, I went to work on Monday but I was super late due to depression making me extra sleepy and careless, so I asked for a sick day and I decided to have a good night sleep, play some video games and talk to some friends and my mom on Tuesday (we don't have a great relationship, but talking about the dumb everyday things was a good small talk with her).
Thankfully, on Wednesday I came back to normal(ish) and truly moved on. I will spare you the details but the next couple of months I spent a lot of time with friends, with gaming (favorite hobby) and then I started looking for girls to have flings or one night stands (and I failed miserably 90% of the time). I even tried to go back to my routine from 5 years ago when I was into most of the mainstream fun around here (booze, drugs, clubbing... I only retried clubbing) but it just felt so UNNATURAL to me, I was trying too hard to make others like me by doing "standard" shit that the girls like.
Le twist! (still personal shit you might not care about)
After that horrible friday night of going to 2 clubs and feeling like a whale inside a sardine can, listening to shitty music while seing my friends getting drunk and having a good time, I felt horrible and decided I shouldn't put up with that shit, I'm fucking 28 already and I don't have to go to a place I hate just so other people like me ever again! On saturday night I had my first date after ending my previous relationship, well not a serious date, just for fun date to meet someone... but I didn't even want to meet this girl with whom I had chatted a little previously since friday was so depressing already.
But I went anyway! I took this girl out, she felt bored out of her mind since she spent about 70% of the time on her phone... but this time I didn't think "I'm a piece of shit", this time I went overboard and thought "fuck it, what's the worse it can happen? I stop seeing her?", and decided to kiss her... aaaaand... she liked it :3
The end
I kept going out with her for a couple of weeks and then she started texting me everyday and then I was the one texting her everyday too... I can't believe how fast and how good this has been so far, it has been 6 weeks now and I'm already falling hard for her, we really like each other and we're weirdos to the eyes of our society (no drinks, no drugs, no clubbing). I'm not saying this is my happy ending forever after, but rather this is my happy present!
I would have NEVER guessed I would be inlove with someone else within the same year... much less after just a couple of months, I'm not the piece of shit that my Depressed Self wants me to think I am :D so I encourage all of you to NOT let your negative thoughts weight you down to the bottom of that black ocean we call depression. BE STRONG, YOU CAN DO IT! (no, please don't think of Shia Leboeuf right now hehe)
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I need to come back here later to read this cos now I am too tired for this :)
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Well I just hope that the "FYI" is useful for someone, I know that writing all of it has been helpful for me, very therapeutic to share with strangers tbh :]
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Really happy you found someone... And that you both share in common your dislike of drugs, alcohol and clubbing.
You have something nice going on... I didn't start dating the girl I married until age 27 , then dated 3 years and got married. Now been married 20 years sooo happy...
I wish you a very happy life!
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Thanks a lot for the good wishes jeff! It's pretty amazing that you've been so many years together, I'm really happy for you guys! Hope your love never stops burning bright :D
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Congrats! D
Here's hoping for twenty more happy, successful years of marriage. )
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It's interesting to read your story and see the contrast between who you really are and whom you where trying to be. There were some really good things you did to avoid the Pit of Depression™ that seem to help a majority of people in the majority of cases:
1 Resist Withdrawal. Curling up into a little ball removes the possibility of moving forward and out of Depression.
- Change of Scene. Getting out of one's house is often a major first-step in exiting Depression.
- Interaction with Others. Communicating with others is a strong step toward "normalcy," and actions affect emotions.
You also practiced one of the key principles to successful dating: "Start with casual." I suggest you follow it up with "Be yourself." (You want her to get to know the real you, not the fake you, correct?)
Anyway, I am cheered up by your victory against the monster that is Despair. Keep up the good work. )
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Here's an interesting video about "listening". It's in Thai but there's subtitle.
Note: Samaritans is a worldwide organization that provide support for those in need.
http://www.samaritans.org
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I know the feeling of hating when someone says "just be happy!"... it's not a goddamn button to press and voilá!
If you're feeling shitty try to do something you love or talk with someone you care about, it helps! :]
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After going through a recent event where someone very close to me was feeling depressed and suicidal, thought I'd make some GA's to get a point across. If you are feeling this way, there is help, and people out there want to help. You're not alone and you are cared about. If you are not of this state of mind, realize that you could be the difference between them getting help, or doing the unthinkable. You will most likely never know how, who, or how many you helped, but that should make no difference. It just matters that you were there. Go and be the best you that you can be. If anyone out there needs someone, i accept all steam friend requests and will reply as soon as i see your message.
Try and keep the thread alive for a while so that more can see it. May i suggest pictures of cats? Anything really.
I'm going to attempt to update this thread once again once a week, between Friday and Sundays.
Link to last page
Change log;
EDIT: http://www.steamgifts.com/discussion/0evEo/an-update-and-moving-forward
EDIT: If you choose to bump with a GA, especially a higher level, and wish for it to be featured on the active GA portion, I suggest a week or longer running length. It can sometimes be a number of days before I can edit this to add new GA's. It's also super helpful if it's in
formatI'm switching to a table format. Not required, but it would let me update the main post more, as it currently takes a while, which means less updates.
EDIT: Total number of GA's added to thread as of last update- 1687+
Note that this is likely much higher. From pages 54-94, I assume all trains to contain only 3 games, while they are likely much higher in number.
GA log of past record
I'm no longer going to keep a detailed log of past GA's. It was simply too much work.
The following, continuously updated, users are the real VIP's of this thread. They have contributed to the development of this ever growing thread, either through exceptional giveaways, an exceptional amount of giveaways, or relentlessly bumping the topic, even when it is/was in a period of disarray, and I wanted to thank them for it, not to cheapen anybody else that has contributed, but to celebrate them for it. Treat them kindly.
SquireZed♥ba2♥TreeB♥CCL666♥hotbullet8♥Dragomania♥Oppenh4imer♥Student123♥AV1♥Kartyl♥Lalwende♥MysticAarrgg♥
YunieRozier♥Noxco♥Nightshifty♥Nerazul♥skunlte♥PROcrastiNATION
ACTIVE GA's
This thread has reached it's limit and has been moved to a reboot
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