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Suffered from depression for 5 years or so, with 1 and a bit years on meds. Recently went cold turkey on them because I couldn't afford to pay for them and picking up prescriptions meant getting out if bed and outside. I had migraines, the shakes, panic attacks and threw up a lot... Yeah so don't do what I did..
A few months ago I felt very suicidal and the depression was crippling. People were sending me over the edge. I felt annoying, stupid and disgusted in myself. People agreed with me. All I seen was darkness and I looked for it too. It was easy to find negative opinions in my position. Suicide runs in the family so I thought why don't I continue it... I felt very alone because people said they cared but never talked to me. They only talked in public and never 1 to 1. Everyone kept saying people were supporting me... But my chat history was empty for months.
Luckily I had my boyfriend and my doctor... or I would have been decaying right now
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I hope you're feeling a little better by now !
Glad you didn't give in to those thoughts and managed to continue :)
When all you see is darkness try to remember that the future is always uncertain and cloudy - the only clear thing you surely know is the past, so try not to give in to the darkness.
Maybe you can have some more cheesecake in a cup now sorry, I may have been stalking the forums a little lately
Trying to enjoy the little things sometimes can help - even if it's just a tiny bit of happiness or just a short smile, it IS something positive and you should try to hold on to that (:
sorry, I already said more than I wanted to, I always get kinda carried away when it's about this topic...
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I don't think I will ever be "normal" but I feel better. I have my down days but they come and go. Things used to get to me like name calling or opinions about me but now its just a passing comment that I may get annoyed at but it doesn't cripple me or wants me to end my life :P
Thank you. I have a tattoo that is of a moth and it reminds me of a quote from a game "Remember, when you're lost in the darkness, look for the light." That is something I try to live by. I'm not perfect but I'm a fighter :)
Hahaha, I still bring that up to this day! That was the first time I met my boyfriend in person, the happiest I had been in a long time :3 stalk away, its there to share :3
I'm in a pretty good place right now, still struggling but I'm aware of my depression now so I can fight it when it comes the best I can :P That is very good advice :D
No don't be sorry! Thank you very much for taking the time to read and reply to me. I don't think anybody else will. I'm thankful and I smiled at your kind words. Have a whitelist, I don't make giveaways but I may do a whitelist one for a special game and try out steams new gifting with SG xD
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It does get better. I've suffered for 11 years now and while I can't say it goes away, it really does get better eventually. It still hurts, and it still lingers in the back of your mind, but it stops being in control so much. It helps to talk about it and be supported by those around you, and you'll find people who you can surround yourself with and trust. Some of them might fail you, but there will be enough. It's good to know what you're fighting with. I still have to tell myself often that the darkness isn't my own thoughts, but the voice of my disease. There are rough patches, but it does get better.
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Im sorry youve had to deal with it for so long. Im glad you are able to figjt it. Yeah I don't really talk about it too much. A few people know irl but I'm not someone who talks about myself, I tend to listen to other people. Online is the place I tend to talk about it most. Don't know why that it really.
Yeah I need to start looking at it like that more. I see it as my thoughts and my feelings but it's not me. My depression is not me. Thank you for that.
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I am glad both of you are getting better and found your own ways to fight the depression!
I don't have much to add to this anymore besides a song that, in my opinion, has an important message: Our Last Night - Sunrise
And best wishes for both of you - and also best wishes to everyone else who's also suffering in any way!
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Original thread - Original Post by DesertMouse1
I've dealt with depression for over a decade, plus PTSD and some health complications which also make things even worse than what they are. But at least I had people that helped me. Friends, family, and even strangers from support groups that made things easier.
You should NEVER think you are alone, because there's always someone willing to help if you look around you. This might sound clichΓ© but it's real, there are terrible people but there are also extremely kind ones. π
Also, if you can and you feel strong enough, please lend a hand to others in need. I've done this for years when I am confident enough that I can take on other people's problems without affecting my health to the point of getting me down.
Remember it's important to help others, but also take care of yourself.
Diagnosed depression isn't a joke (as in diagnosed by a professional and not by the patient, don't confuse it with other symptoms!). It's a serious condition and it shouldn't be taken lightly because it's not a physical illness. Just like cancer ends up with death, depression will escalate to suicide or cripple you in many ways.
Everyone feels "down" once in a while, but for some people it's a daily pattern of depression. The good news is that it is treatable.
Usually through therapy, medication, or a combination of the two. Antidepressant medication, despite some side effects, can help lift a person from the depths of depression within weeks of starting medication therapy.
If one medication doesn't work for you or the side effects are too much for you to live with, keep in mind that there are many others your doctor could give you to try.
Make sure your doctor knows about any other meds you are taking and always ask questions about your medication therapy, if needed.
Btw, DON'T get self-diagnosed, it's a terrible idea. You might be sad or during a grieving period, so always check with a doctor.
Besides, I don't know about other countries but over here antidepressants are only available if you have a medical prescription, so you will only be left with a possibly wrong diagnostic and no way to deal with it.
Some info:
What Is Depression?
Google users can now screen themselves for depression, then seek treatment
Taking Care of Yourself While Supporting a Depressed Loved One
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