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Tell someone you appreciate them. That's all. :)

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Before anyone says anything. I don't want pity, I just want to make someone smile today

So, for as long as I can remember I've been down. I didn't do anything, I would sleep my days away, wouldn't go to school etc. I found this place. A place where I could forget about my life and be someone different. I would laugh and smile, I would be bubbly and stabby and I would be outgoing. I played games with people and talked about everything playful to profound.

Some people stayed and some people left. Some people said goodbye and went on with their life... Some just deleted me and left without a thought.

Things got worse both in my life and on steam. I didn't know where to turn.

Drama happened and I thought I'd lose the one place I can be... Happy.

Yes. I suffer from depression and I'm getting better. I know there are many people on this site who know they are suffering too or maybe they don't know yet.

You might be asking Jaye (chicken) why are you telling people something so personal? I don't know really. All I know is out of all the shit that has been going on there has been good. I want people to know about it.


I here by am doing another nomination thread :)

I want to thank anybody who as been in my life for a second, a few minutes, days, months or years. These people may not have done anything big but they are 5 people I want to say thank you to. There are many others but these are just 5.

TinyPurple - Thank you for making me smile. Asking if I was okay and telling me your story. You care and it makes me happy :)

LadySanta - You sent me a lovely message on my thread and it made me genuinely smile from what you said. We need to play Rocket League very soon. Thank you.

bigbud13 - Thank you for thinking of me to nominate for Delta's thread. It was so unexpected and made me feel like people remember my name and respect me. You probably thought nothing of it but it made me happy.

Khalaq - You've commented a few times on my threads where I mention being "a little sad" and gave me some very good advice and I appreciate it. Recently even your "<3" comments have made me feel appreciated. Thank you for being so kind.

Wallister - You have stuck with me through everything. I don't deserve you but you stay. I love you for everything you do for me. I couldn't ask for anyone better. You always make me smile without fail and have me giggling until 5am. You are the definition of a soul mate. Words don't describe how much you mean to me. Thank you.


So, now its your turn. This isn't a +1 event, or really an event at all. I just wanted you to comment as many people as you want and tell them why you appreciate them in your life. You never know, you might give them one thing to smile about today. No it doesn't need to be someone well known because they gave a good game. I want someone who made you laugh so hard your pee'd yourself a little, someone who listened to you rant about some bitch at work, someone who took time to play a game with you or someone that asked how you were doing randomly.

If you seen anyone mentioned. Why not permalink the comment and show them considering there is no @ system.

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Did you make someone smile today?

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Yes :)
No, but I'm going to now :)

Thanks to Fyantastic for being an awesome and super positive, although often overlooked, member of the community. Seriously, that guy is always so cheerful it always bring a smile to my face when I see one of his comments.

Thanks to all the people who commented and shared the love in the "positive" thread or other giveaway threads.

Thanks to you, for reminding us all to appreciate each other.

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<3

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I appreciate stabbing and being addicted to giveaways.

And free healthcare so I won't be bankrupted when I'm getting my surgery.

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I had spent quite a while typing a reply and sharing a personal story, but I had so much crap going on and I accidentally closed the wrong tab. Anyway, the moral of the story I was going to share is that sometimes the best thing you can do is just say fuck everyone and be selfish once in a while.

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first world problems, fuck tabs. why cant they be smart enough to know we didnt actually mean to close them.
thats why sometimes when i have to type something long i would sometimes use google docs since it autosaves

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Today, I was working at my supermarket. Most days I get up last minute and get a 30 minute bus to sit with a fake smile and pretend like I'm happy. I'm not.

Today, a woman complained she couldn't use her vouchers because I opened the till too fast as there was a big queue. She said I was an impatient, silly girl. She also complained that the £5 note was not a high standard... Before that I waited 10 minutes for an elderly woman to find her points card and run to get rice. I packed her bags and made sure she left satisfied and asked if she needed help with anything else.

I always hand people their change and cards etc hand to hand. Common sense really to respect people. Yet a man threw two unopened bags and said "you only opened one" and then put his payment on the automatic belt as I scrambled for the coins and notes.

Many of these people are common and well... I'm used to it. I'm sure people have experienced this, like I do.

Yet the one person I remember is a woman who smiled warmly and instead of me asking all the questions about her day.. She asked me about mine. She looked genuinely interested. She even told me how nice I was to other colleagues. This made me happy. I appreciate the people that are kind to those below them. The people doing probably what she did at my age. Maybe she was well off and didn't know about how it is. Yet, she treated me like a human being. I appreciate people like her and I want to be that person.

I served a girl. She was roughly the same age, maybe a little older than I am. She was pretty and had a slight smile on her face but it was fake. I had seen that smile before. Her eyes were slightly red and her makeup was slightly smudged. She was trying but I seen she was in pain. I looked her in the eyes at the end of the shop. The last customer I said "bye now", with her I made sure to say "thank you and I hope you enjoy the rest of your night" and I smiled at her with the truest smile I could form and her eyes almost sparkled and she smiled a big toothy smile and whispered thank you.

Today I made someone smile. Seeing someone genuinely smile when maybe they were sad made me happy and forget about those other people.

If it wasn't for that lovely woman, I would have never made someone smile today. I appreciate her.

Today I woke up sad but now I go to bed with a smile on my face :)

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It's the little actions that make life great. Glad to hear you made someone smile.

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I'm glad to hear that someone managed to make your day. And that you managed to make someone else's day. Positivy almost seems contagious too bad negativity is too. Just stay positive, and good things will come eventually? That's what I like to believe anyways :3
I hope more people will be able to make you smile (more regularly) and you others?

P.s. I don't think you should think of yourself as "below others". All (wo)men are equal.

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Oouhh >curls up like a cat, all cozy, and listens to more stories<

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The little things in life are the best. I'm sure that woman appreciated it probably more than you could know. :)

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that nice, sometime a good event can lift your mood for a time, enjoy it much as possible okay
I'm not gonna say something cliche, but say this" you will suprise to know how many can understand and feel what you say, even when they not say anything,"

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Here's something that recently made me laugh so hard.

We went to a swimming pool (I, my wife, and the two kids). We haven't been to a pool all summer, it's been probably a year since we last went. Anyway, the kids' swimming was rusty, took them a while to get some control back.

The kids like that I stand in the shallow water and they pass between my legs. Took the six year old a few tries to even manage to get down by pulling on me, but it was the 8 year old that killed me. Instead of angling her body for diving, she made a handstand in the water, then curved forward and head-butted me right in the balls.

Now, I have some experience with this diving-under-dad thing, so I had a hand there for protection, but it was ridiculous, and even more when she did that two more times. I just burst out laughing, she said she's never seen me laugh like that. That situation, with her innocently butting me in the balls repeatedly was just so ridiculous.

That's one of my ways to deal with situations that are not really that great if you look at them solemnly. Looking at how silly they are is much better than getting annoyed with them. For example if I had to deal with that woman who took 10 minutes to get her points and rice, I'd probably have a 'two days later' scene running in my head, imagining both of us unwashed, she dragging herself to get 'just one last thing'.

Just reading what you write, it's obvious that you're sensitive and caring. You're a good person, and that's what counts. Don't let people get you down (yeah, I know, easy to say). Try to focus on the nice things.

I'm pretty bad about coming up with specific names to mention. You're obviously one nice presence on the forum. I also appreciate those who took up Rachel's mantle with the bundles (InquisitorAles and MilleW; anyone else?). I also appreciate Tzell and DeltaBladeX. Probably a few more I forget.

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Thank you for your good mood !
I do not like talking about myself, so I talk about you:

I like sincerely love your freedom of Speech & your simplicity ^_^

Stay really like this, vous ête merveilleuse

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I appreciate every person and event which makes this site alive, even if I don't participate or talk that much on group chats/discussions. But I do read. And I just want to say thanks.

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Right, I'm writing to maybe nobody here. People probably stopped paying attention to this thread and if there is someone reading this then I guess you care enough. So thank you.

I'm not going to make a thread so people think I'm attention seeking and I'm not going to leave silently. Instead, I'm going to write one comment on the 5th page of my last thread. This place was an escape for me. I hated everything about life and me. This was a good place to come. Right now its toxic and I guess I'm too weak for it, I don't want to play the victim, definitely don't want to do that...

For the past year or so I have been silent about my depression to everyone but deep down I knew I was depressed. BAA was a group I was in and people will remain nameless but a lot of those people suffered knowingly from depression and so forth. I stayed and supported them. I listened. I played games with them. I was there for them. Just like anybody else would do. But what I didn't do was mention that I knew exactly how they felt.

So, no I don't want to play the victim. I have depression but so do many others. Some minor and some major. But we are all suffering. I definitely don't feel like the world revolves around me. Frankly, I feel like I have no significance on this earth. I am a blurry face in a crowd of people, I have no skills, I hate the way I look and I'm not interesting. I hate myself. So yes. I am weak. I hurt easily. Which is why I'm leaving the forum.

I will clear out my blacklist and whitelist. I will re whitelist a few people that have stuck with me through everything and I will make giveaways here and there. But for now I'm done. If you find yourself deleted on steam and feel like you shouldn't have then re add me. I will delete people later. I already cut it to 100 people but will cut more.

So, finally. Thank you to everyone who has been a friend to me throughout this. Before and after they knew about my illness. I'm sorry to those that had me whitelisted/talked to me and have now unfriended, unwhitelisted and/or blacklisted me. I'm sorry I'm not the person you once thought I was.

I will leave this thread open. Bump if you wish or let it drop, thats all up to you. I want to leave a positive message which is why I removed my negative thoughts the other day from the OP. Stay smiling and make others smile around you.

One last time stab <3

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I'm disgusted its come to this. Yet another person who has been hounded out of the forums. What do we know though eh? We should have thicker skin and stop playing the victim.

I don't think everyone thinks the same, but yeah, its clearly not a place in which we can have fun any more or even talk without drawing scorn from every corner.

To everyone that was complicit in this happening, go fuck yourselves, you are actively ruining this community and making one good person after another leave. You are actively stopping the community as a whole move forward and enjoy itself.

I was waiting for her to post but yes, I'm also out, I wanted one last hurrah to perhaps draw attention to the things that are happening here behind the scenes and now much more out in the open. Again, like Chicken, no big thread about leaving, just a reply to her comment.

I urge everyone to seriously discuss whats gone on here, or at least take a close look at what has happened.

Goodbye SG!

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I'm also out, I wanted one last hurrah to perhaps draw attention to the things that are happening here behind the scenes and now much more out in the open.

Oh come on! :( please don't, we're seing a leak of good people, REALLY good people. We need to keep sharing love and stop hate being what spreads the most against each other.

We should have thicker skin

I vouch for this, it's not a "victimization" issue, but rather that we shouldn't give power of how we feel to a couple of douchebags who spout hateful things towards us, I urge you to reconsider just like I told SC... if you feel you need a break then take one, but please don't give your back at this community just yet, I believe we can still turn this situation around.

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Maybe I could write a similar reply to your post as I did to Chicken's but considering I doubt either of you will read it, that would be pointless. Still I'm writing because:

  • I'm sorry to see you go. Eventhough I dislike some of your posts (for example when you used hate to fight against perceived injustice) and disagree with some things that have been said. I did agree with the message I think was behind it. And who knows, maybe I might have reacted equally strongly if I'd been in a similar situation.
    Point is: I believe you're a good person at heart, so it's sad you're going.

  • What I agree with is that we need a serious discussion, a closer investigation, a self-cleansing ability that apparently was either lost or wasn't strong enough to begin with. I believe this can be done and once it is, I hope you and Chicken haven't vanished forever. There should always be room for people with a good heart.

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I'm sorry to see you too go. It's really bad for the community that the nicer people leave, and the jerks remain, although that's what often happens in communities.

(IMO SG is geared towards being toxic. CV made it toxic, and blacklists even more so. The more you add tools to exclude people and pass judgement on them, the more toxic a site becomes.)

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wakes up after 30+ days of inactivity

I know them feels bro!
Just remember, your scumbag brain is twisting your reality.
For instance, (now I missed this whole story arc), that (W)ally person thinks you are interesting (more people do I'm sure, but let's just keep this small and focus the clichés on him!), he thinks you are pretty+ (see previous(...)), he knows you have skills (no scumbag brain, no playing in the gutter, i mean G-rated stuff), etc, etc...
Small steps are the beginning of great journeys, and it sounds like you found that small step (sorry dude, lol) and his name is Ally. Take hold of that feeling, just knowing that there is that special someone who cares, who stands by you, who backs you up, who is ready to defend you when he deems it necessary, who loves you for you...that is a wonderful thing. As you accept that first step it will grow bigger, it will change your outlook, you are moving forward...into a second step...
It may take a while for a second step to take shape, there is no momentum in these things, go too fast and you will stumble, but when the second step does happen...you are walking...just don't try to run....I recommend skipping...I love skipping...

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You know. Since you've been away for 30+ days. I blame you.
For all of it.
You personally.
For ever.

No, not really. Actually really not. But now I have your attention and wanted to say: good you're back. :)
Despite the fallout: stay active. that's an order. And smile, that's another order.

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It did all start when I left a few months ago. Just call me Mr Glue. :P

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Nobody can make everyone like them, not in real life and certainly not on the internet. But you have a LOT of people who like you, so why leave? I honestly don't think running away will make you feel any better, and so I think you should stay for the people that love you and ignore the rest. Which is how you should deal with people in real life too, have fun with those that like you, ignore the haters.

People aren't really born with skills, they develop them by practicing what they have interest in. Find something you're interested in and work on it until you get skilled at it. That's the only way.

Why care how you look? It's what's inside that counts and you already found a person who loves you whole. You shouldn't worry about it.

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Chibi is right! Even if she decides to take a break, in the end we can't always run away from horrible people, we need to take the good criticism that helps us grow and dismiss all the other bullshit. In the end what's more comforting is seing all the people that cares and likes us, even if it's just ONE person, that person should make the difference (specially if he's your life partner)

PS: Also hey OMB! Long time I didn't stumble upon you! I still have fond memories of our little conversations, your motto and your previous avatar (the hoodie guy with the katana in the rain hehe). So glad to bump in an appreciation thread since I appreciate you being in this site :D

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I think it all depends on how much good vs. how much bad a person gains from a community. If there is more bad feeling than good feeling, then a person is perfectly justified in leaving.

Our chicken kitten is depressed now, so she's taking things harder. I think someone else said in a post that people rarely post good things. So sure, a lot of people like SadisticChicken, but they don't tell her that, perhaps because it feels weird just saying good things about a person without a pretext. (I'm not sure what you personally think about her, but you didn't say anything good either.) So, especially in her state, she gets mainly the negativity. But I think that even someone who's not depressed, and gets a lot of criticism without any positive feedback, would justly prefer to leave that environment.

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but you didn't say anything good either

at the time they posted that, they were (may still be) in the same house (or apt or cabin or whatever) as each other ;)
bf & gf ;) im sure he turned to her and said something nice after the post =) hehe

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I replied to ChibiCthulhu. Far as I know Wallister is SadisticChicken's boyfriend.

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my bad. yes correct. (afaik2)

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This was a good place to come. Right now its toxic and I guess I'm too weak for it, I don't want to play the victim, definitely don't want to do that...

HOLY SHIT NOT YOU TOO! First Yunie, then Rachel, please not you too... God this makes me so pissed, I can't believe the assholes are louder than the rest of us. Other great users are taken breaks and stuff, but reading about the toxic people driving away amazing people makes me really frustrated.

Well, if you need a break from the crappy voices that are hurting you I won't tell you not to take it, but KNOW that a lot of people are happy to see you on forum and on chats, you were the original creator of the Stabbing™!!!

Finally, I have suffered several years of depression, and many of us gamers seek refuge in gaming worlds due to this emotional condition, this thread is proof enough, just know that there is a way out! You can love yourself and allow others to love you without guilt.

Hope this is just a break and not a farewell, you will make a lot of people happy when we see your next thread, GA or comment here!

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When I saw this thread 2 days ago I started creating a file of over 200+ SG members and was writing up a explanation of appreciation for each and everyone of them in detail... I planned on posting it to this thread as I absolutely love appreciation being expressed and find its the best medicine for me to express appreciation. I will end up doing it but I want it to be as complete as possible as I see so much good and potential in everyone on SG.

You did a great thing with creating this thread Chicken... You did it not for attention for yourself but for attention on everyone else and the reasons why we appreciate them. It's an absolutely beautiful thread... To be cherished...

You and Ally were such positive, supportive, commending and fun hosts last week during the Connect-the-dot event. I've appreciated you for awhile now and think you're a sweet couple.

You are so right that we all are suffering... I too see a psychiatrist every 2 months and am on depression meds and anti-psychotic meds to counter the side effects from my many Parkinson's medications. Humans need other humans, starve for love and appreciation and yes we all need care, concern, compassion and attention from others. Everyone on SG threads are very emotionally in need of comfort... Need to feel a belonging, and are trying to find some way for SG to contribute to that.

The recent "Alone" thread, the "Love" thread, the "Positive thread", the long standing "You're not alone" thread, the "Giveback" thread and this "Appreciation" thread are proof that we need each other. But, it's important that we are kind, patient, and focus on the good we see in everyone.

We should speak consolingly to depressed ones and I'm sure that probably 90% of SG members are depressed... Although not diagnosed.

The reality that we see is a world spiraling downward with more and more people with loss of love, people who could care less about others feelings, becoming highly opionated, and not seeking peace.

Peace is sooo needed in ones heart and most needed in a thriving community... Expressing appreciation, caring for others feelings, speaking kind and consolingly to all is the way to achieve peace.

This appreciation thread is a step in the right direction.

Thank you and everyone else that has posted kind words of others on this thread.

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So many toxic communities on the Internet unfortunately. Probably why I post sparingly in most places. The bigger the community gets the worse it gets. Even when there are plenty of good people it gets overshadowed by those that aren't. You are probably better off sticking to close friends you already made and just not worrying about the rest because it's not worth it. if someone is negative/trolling you they are looking for a reaction/response so ignoring them is the best solution.

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I shouldn't be posting here probably and really it doesn't matter what I say but:
I think you're wrong. Very wrong.

When you say "I feel like I have no significance on this earth": Wrong. You have significance and you will be missed.

When you say "I am a blurry face in a crowd of people": Wrong. You're a clear presence as far as I am concerned and you were a welcome one in my eyes.

When you say " I have no skills": Wrong. I'm sure you have skills. And even if you don't believe so: you were able to emotionally touch people, make someone (me) smile. That is a skill.

When you say: "I hate the way I look and I'm not interesting.": Wrong.You look fine and you were an interesting person in the forum whose threads and posts were worthwhile to read in my humble opinion.

When you say: "I am weak." Wrong. You made an effort, you stood out from the crowd and gor hurt cause of it, but you still tried to make some positive post and try to send a message to people about making others smile. That's not weakness.

So yes, maybe you hurt easily and maybe you hate yourself. But really, you're human so that's how it goes. And you're better than you think you are. Sure, you probably made mistakes, you're human after all. But I think you're a good person. And you'll be missed.

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Really nice comment! ^_^ Every person has something which cannot be broken - that's his will!

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<3

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<3

I'd written a huge thing, but I think it needs a different forum

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Sorry to see you go. I got used to your presence around here. You played a large role in this community and you are far from being a "blurry face in a crowd". From your photos I see a good-looking girl. I cannot do anything about the negative way you see yourself, but I can assure you that people around you don't see it that way, especially your boyfriend. Taking a break from virtual world could be a good idea to sort life a bit. Anyway wishing you much peace, love and happiness if you'll not going to return. I hope you'll discover your life aim(s) soon. Take care.

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If there's anything depressing it's seeing someone think so low of themselves.

First of all, I have no idea why you don't like the way you look. You look very cute, at least in your avatar pictures. Then there's the matter of skills. I think that you have the skills to help people and support them. You have the skills to make people around you feel better. These are very important skills. And that is why you have significance, more so than a lot of other people.

I hate to see another nice presence on the forums go. I do hope you pull through and stop being depressed, and I hope you find a group of nice people to support you.

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<3 I appreciate you <3

What is going these days on SG, especially a certain thread yesterday, made me leave my computer and wish to never come back to this place. Full understanding for your reaction. While this might have been only the surface - and I don't even want to know more - it was enough. It is a shame things have developed that way. My heart is hurting.
All the best to you and Ally, Jaye. We've never been close, but I always liked the lighthearted positivity you were spreading around the forums and the canny replies you were throwing about. Take care <3

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I'm happy that I'm missing all that stuff. I guess that selective reading pays off. :)

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I don't have the time to read everything, I rarely stumble upon to a lot of toxicity in the steamgifts city... but I think that people who make a lot of popular threads are the ones who try to read everything others post to them and face harsh criticism and bullshit comments in return.

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Sorry to see you go, but I know how sometimes it's best to just walk away and get some fresh air. I know I personally hate conflict and avoid it at all costs. I am not a fighter and it just makes me feel sick in my stomach. I just want everyone to be happy and get along. If there is someone who I don't get along with or who is taxing on me emotionally, I'll just cut them out of my life and get rid of the negativity. Life is too short to deal with that nonsense.

I wish you all the best, and maybe see you back around stabbing people again someday! :)

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Best of luck. It was nice to see you around here.

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It's sad that it has come to this for both you and Ally (I'm too lazy to reply to both of you :p). I know what it's like to suffer from depression, and I know it isn't easy. I generally don't really talk about it, since I don't really have a need for it, but I sympathise with you. One thing I learned over the years is that depression won't allow you to judge yourself fairly since you are significant to Ally, to your friends and to your family, I'm sure you have skills even if you don't recognize them as such, you are attractive (I like your new avatar), judging from the many people that appreciate you just on this forum alone I'd say you're plenty interesting, you matter in this world. I hope both of you will feel better soon, I'll leave you with one of the few things that actually makes me feel a little better whenever I feel really bad: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWVElQ6NfcE

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I'm sorry to see you go Chicken! I'm not entirely sure whats going on and am having trouble keeping up with it, but sad to see you go all the same :( At the end of the day you have to do what you feel is best for yourself though. The internet can sometimes be a rough place to bounce around in. Focus on yourself and building yourself up in this time. I wish you nothing but the best in your future and I do hope you decide to come back to us. <3

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It's certainly flattering enough that I found myself on your whitelist in the first place. :)

Feel free to stab me on Steam if you need a distraction, and remove me if you feel your stabbings best spend elsewhere.
I can't offer much, but, I did fully mean what I said in my first comment- your openness is appreciated, and worthy of reciprocation.

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I've been following the discussions that erupted in the past few days from the sidelines, and it's sad to see that it has come to this. I sincerely hope there will be moments that shine like a bright light despite the darkness around you and give you peace and even joy, even if this forum was not the place to find them.

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God knows - For you and your boyfriend
Perfectionist Complex - For anyone with depression

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So many people still keeping this thread up with their positivity I*v*I Hope you're reading all their messages dear Chicken I~v~I

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Its nice, I've been reading them all <3

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You're definitely not writing to nobody! You made a nice thread that I personally really liked seeing. I've been keeping an eye on it and seeing what/who people are thankful for because... Frankly, it makes me smile seeing most of these posts! So thanks for making this thread! :3

Now, I won't say much about your depression, since I personally don't really know much about it, so I'll stick to what I know!

You mention that you have no significance on this earth, and this I can't say I agree with. You are a very well-known person here on SG! I've not spoken to you much, but since I've been (active) on SG, after only like 2 weeks, your name was already in one of my personal "Awesome popular SG people"-list. You're a very well-known person around these forums and to be honest, I've always thought it was fun to see one of your posts! stab So don't you think you're insignificant! You make me (and probably others) smile on a regular basis!

As for skills, I can't say much on the matter, but you probably do have some skills (even if you don't know about them)! Even if you do not, skills can always be honed by practice! But you already seem to have the ability to make others smile regularly. Surely that is a skill too? :3

As for the last thing you mentioned, you hating the way you look? What is this nonsense! You look fine girl! Ally is a lucky guy!

Now, I personally think it is a great shame you are leaving, and I hope we will be able to see you return sometime in the future. It was nice having you here while you were!
o/

Edit: I need to stop writing so many friggin paragraphs D:
Final edit: I can't believe so many people have unwhitelisted or blacklisted you. I personally think you should be on my whitelist, and am unsure why you are not yet. So hereby, consider yourself whitelisted! Even though it means almost nothing since I barely do whitelisted gibs. (probably because there's only like 20 people on my whitelist and I'll never get enough entries if I do make them :P)

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Thank you. Genuinely, thank you. I am resisting replying to each person here but I find myself reading and rereading these comments.

Your comment really got to me. I just wanted to say thanks, not that I don't appreciate the other comments but I just felt the urge to comment with yours. You tipped me over the edge.

Honestly, thank you to everyone. I never expected this amount of love. Genuinely overwhelmed by the replies. I appreciate the time taken to read and reply. I'm very thankful and I'm feeling better each day. Thank you to everyone supporting me here and privately <3

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I can't really do much to cheer you up, unless you would find more chicken pics funny. :)
I'm sorry people made you feel like this is a shitty place to be. I'm sorry we (the smaller assholes of the site) don't/can't/didn't do enough to make you feel welcome here. Maybe you can make a nice Steam group of your own with the sadist equivalent of hookers and blackjack and chat with friends there. ;)

Have a hug from me (you can have Alli can be my proxy).

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Its probably been about 10 weeks, around the amount of time I've been on anti-depressants. I look back at this and smile... Strangely... Because when I read this, I know these are not my words, they are my depression's.

I didn't have things to look forward to - I have a beautiful and healthy niece on the way in April, I'm thinking about moving out my mothers home and I want to get back into education
I hated my job - I now know its not going to be forever and my future will be good
I hated myself - I still do but that's separate from my depression, but I no longer look in the mirror and cry. I think me and my skills could be worthy at some point
I didn't go to do university, and I was terminated because I didn't show for my exam - After New Year I will be applying to university to study teaching. Something I've thought about for years and my friends said they see me most doing that
I thought nobody cared or liked me - I have supportive friends, family and boyfriend. I look below this and see many comments supporting me, "praising" me and appreciating me. I received so many messages and it made me want to stay

I appreciate SG users
I appreciate my boyfriend
I appreciate my family
I appreciate strangers
I appreciate myself :)

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It means a lot to me! Thank you! Its nice not having to only see the negative as much now! I can actually think of the good in my life! I have a long way to go before I fully get better but this is a start! ^^

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Depression sucks, but you're stronger than you know. Keep fighting and I hope that each day gets a little bit easier. (The biggest thing I've learned is to acknowledge and appreciate every little improvement/thing you do that's in a positive direction. Even if it feels like baby steps, it's still a foot in the right direction.) Wishing you all the best. <3

p.s. Thank you for pointing out spreading kindness. I think it can be easy to get caught up in your own struggles and sadness, but spreading hate and putting each other down is the worst thing that we can do for one another.

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:( I'm sad that we reached this point, but I do believe that this is the best for a while. Take care of eachother, and get better!

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Ignore the posts you don't like and thats it. However, your personal life and how you take depression its more important than this forum.

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I appreciate Khalaq for having wisdom and insight that I do not possess in life and being incredibly helpful all the time. His words are so coherent and amazing. Brother's magnificient.

I appreciate Fiftykyu for being the wittiest and clever person on SG hands down. Go read some of his comments on his giveaways and be careful not to dehydrate yourself due to the amount of tears you will shed from laughter.

I appreciate Jbond for his sheer awesomeness. One of my favorite users here and hands down the BEST DRAGON! :D

And Khazoordoon for being my favorite M&B buddy and Star Trek lover :D

Also the countless other people that have made me laugh, smile and enjoy life that I have had the pleasure of meeting on here. :)

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Thank you to whoever talks to me, they make me forget how lonely I am for a few seconds.

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Talks to you.

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<3

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I'm lonely, but not actually depressed. Those people need more help than I do.

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here, another notification, lets chack it!

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:D

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Hi. Hello. How are you?
Also, why haven't you been on Discord for so long? You used to be one of the (few) active ones! D:

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I've been busy, and also when I do get in nobody talks :(

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only just now saw this... you should have linked me
or made Ally "casually " link me ;)

anyway, i do care.

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I appreciate the little birds that I hear singing in the early morning they get rid of a lot of rage when we talk(by that I mean I whistle they whistle they whistle I whistle) and I appreciate everybody who takes part in SG love you all. KISSES.

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I appreciate people appreciating other people! :3
\o/

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I appreciate everyone who calls me an idiot for having a different opinion, which is my own alone and you got no right to judge me! Much appreciated, honest <3

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Idiot
for caring about what other people say

hey, you asked

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I don't care, I just appreciated the people who do it, for wasting the time to write it. Because I know it's time spent for me <3

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Ah. In that case, smart ;)
As long as you don't care.

Time wasted on writing crap is less time giving money to gaben, right?

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ikr, you're falling for it too. Appriciated <3

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yeah, i don't like giving gaben money ;)

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Don't worry, you can share the money with me, I know you want it. So, what is your greatest desire?

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to give kapy money.

but i don't have any, do you accept carrots?

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Carrots are good for the eyes. I accept, but you pat the shipment :p

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I don't think fedex accept carrots as payment...

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I trust in your capacity to convince them :p

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I appreciate SadisticChicken < 3.Please IGNORE those haters/posts and make your "sg business" as usual.So many people appreciate your previous "work" here and the "bad influence" of a small group of ***** should ALWAYS be a minor issue !

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I appreciate you

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