Another year passed by...[depression thread]

Hey. Another year has passed! Rejoice with your loved ones! Rejoice with your dogguu, with your cat, with your parrot or tarantula, or whatever pet u have.(you might not have. me neither)
Why do I feel so hollow inside ? I've spent my new year eve with 2 friends at my place playing videogames on my pc
(gang beasts, duck game, left 4 dead 2, dark souls III, broforce) and felt like hell the whole time. Whats the meaning of this whole celebration? What the meaning of life when you cant believe in any religion? Why do we exist? I dont know why im writting this. I might still be drunk?