Fuck You All

Congratulations to the OP.

You got what you wanted....ATTENTION and VALIDATION.

I have come across many people like you who do this.

For all the people lying to you saying that "it will get better", I will leave this link here-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=486otan-Y5I

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I think plenty of people notice when you're gone since you're one of the regulars and part of the fabric of this place -- you're clever and I always like seeing your posts. Whatever the crazy title might be, it's a bit like opening a present to see what's inside. I was hoping in this case I'd enter the thread to find you wishing everyone great sex or something, but sadly you're really lashing out, as I feared. I don't really know you and I only have a pretty general sense of what you're going through but just because you feel alone and unhappy now doesn't mean you'll feel that way forever. I'm sure that seems cliched and of little comfort in the here and now when you're suffering, but it's true. I don't know if I have any good advice for you nor do I know what other sites you frequent but maybe you should spend some time on sites that are specifically for meeting people and that allow you to focus on people who may live near you. There are lots of people that genuinely like you here, but it would be even better if you could get to know someone online who you could also spend time with in real life. Sure, that's easier said than done, but just trying would at the very least be a way to pass the time, with the added bonus of it possibly paying off in real life on that glorious day when the IRL spacecat has good news for you. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Anyway, it's not like I'm some dude who's got it all figured out and you've gotten a lot of other (and better) advice here, but I just wanted to try to offer some words of support -- hope you feel better soon.

This is the last place ANYONE should go to for help. Hell, going to the internet for help on anything at all is risky anymore. There are proper places for these types of situations and this is NOT one of them.

Fuck you too i guess? What the fuck i personally ever done to you. And you tell me to fuck off?

Everyone here has their own lives. The amount of time they allocate to online friends is only a small proportion ... and at their own convenience. You really shouldn't rely on people on Steamgifts to be your support network. They can be a supplement, but you need a core of people who you can see and touch.

I hope you become unhappy and alone just so you know what it's like.

You have no idea. Compare notes with me, sometime, and you will learn new levels of depression, anxiety, and despair. Granted, I've been suicidal on only a couple of occasions, but that's because I've always known that suicide is not an "out" and my brain has (almost) always prevented me. I eventually learned how to climb out of the black hole which is depression, however, and so it has less of a hold on me than in the past. (Some scars never heal.) Dealing with depression and negative thoughts is a skill anyone can learn, but you have to want to do so. Feeling better and living a decent life is quite scary when you're used to sitting in the dark. People don't like to change because they fear the unknown.

It sounds like you're in a lot of pain and I'm sorry you feel that way, I've felt the same way at times in my life. It sounds to me like you really need to talk to someone and get a lot off your chest. There's no shame in seeking counselling, even if it's just from a friend or family member. But I can tell you for certain that reaching out and seeking counsel on the internet, on an anonymous site like this, is a bad idea.

You clearly see Steamgifts or the internet in general as one monolithic voice of awful people, but you have to realise that everyone is an individual, everyone has their own cross to bear, their own personality. Seeing the world as the enemy, as one voice against yours, it's a misinterpretation. You have to realise that subjectively you're the main character, but for other people they're the main character in this movie called 'life.' It might seem heartless when people ignore you or if they don't care, but try and see it from another perspective. One could also accuse you of the same thing, I'm sure there are plenty of lonely/depressed people on this site, people who are so withdrawn that they have given up on even reaching out like you have done.

Anyway I wish you the best, apologies since this message probably isn't very helpful. But I know from experience that it helps to talk to someone in person, even if that ends up being a stranger or your doctor or something, it makes a world of difference. Take care.

Edit: I just remembered, some websites offer great services like free chat-based counselling from trained counsellors. There are other sites that host forums relating to depression and other issues and these can be very therapeutic and will allow one to share one's experienced and seek advice. These are great resources and it's worth investigating, it's a good first step.

Reminds me of this, except substitute "the internet" for "Facebook".

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I understand.

I understand that you are mad at yourself and are taking it out on us because we've been nice to you in the past. If you can make us say terrible things to you, you can be justified in your anger, and your anger will let you turn your back on us. Then you can be justified in hurting yourself or worse and that will make it our fault, not yours.

If you think none of us have been unhappy, or alone, or hurt, or had our hearts broken, you're wrong. If you think none of us care, you're wrong. If you think letting this flood of negativity and self-belittlement and self-blame wash over you is the right thing to do, you're wrong. And it's okay to be wrong. It's okay to be hurt. It's okay to lose someone you love. And it's okay to feel alone. We've all done it. Some of us are doing it now, right along with you, but you can't see us and we're not as brave as you to try to discuss it.

I'm assuming you lost someone you loved. Let me tell you this: if you think for a moment that girl that I loved in high school, that one I couldn't live without, the one who broke my heart, if you think she even crosses my mind anymore, you're wrong (and like I said, it's okay to be wrong. We learn and grow by making mistakes). If you think for a moment that my father's passing still has me emotionally fractured, it doesn't. Time heals those wounds, numbs the pain, softens the loss. It does get better, but you have to be willing to let it happen.

There's a lot of depression under all that anger. I know, I've been there, I'm still there. Depression has been a constant companion since at least seventh grade, which makes...a long time. Longer than any friend I've had, any relationship I've been in. Longer than all my schooling, longer than my entire work history. It doesn't go away. But that doesn't mean it has to control you.

Step one: realize you need help and go get help. The long and short of it is that nobody will ever help you except you. You need to make that first step, you need to reach out - nobody will come to you. Go find a therapist, or a friend, or call a crisis hotline. Don't like the person you reach, don't like the therapist? Find another. They are there for your benefit and to help you. Don't feel like you're being helped? Find another. Eventually you'll find one that clicks.

Step two: Change of scenery. Not just outdoors, I mean make everything new if you have to. I never realized how terrible my friends in high school were until I stopped hanging out with them. Re-evaluate your surroundings. If you're in a bad scene, make a strategy to leave. It might not happen right away, but having a sense of purpose and direction can vastly improve your outlook. Job sucks? Find a new one (don't quit your current job until you have a new one - unemployment compounds depression). Friends dragging you down? Start cutting ties. It's tough, but you'll thank yourself later. Hometown sucks, like mine did? Make plans to move and get out of there. I never knew people were actually nice until I relocated out of state and away from all the nasty, hateful people I grew up around.

Step three: Start taking care of yourself: Eat better. Exercise. Sleep. Keep your mind active. If you're depressed, your brain is not producing the proper chemicals for it to run right. Exercise releases endorphins, which make you feel better. I've never had so much confidence in life as when I worked out regularly. Can't cook? It's easy to learn. Cans of soup and canned vegetables have easy recipes with very few ingredients and make a good starting point. Remember: you get out what you put into your body, so garbage food and garbage thoughts make you feel like garbage. And an inactive brain will turn on itself out of boredom - the more time you have to do nothing but think, the greater the chance your thoughts will turn negative.

Step four: Don't give up. You want revenge on somebody? Show them how tough you really are - succeed. You don't need to be a millionaire or famous, that's nonsense the media feeds us. Get a degree. Get a decent job. Pay off your debts. Stop living paycheck to paycheck. None of this happens overnight and none of it is easy. But you will never have a truer smile than seeing that person who hurt you is the same as they ever were and knowing, actually KNOWING that you're so much better off without them.

I know you're mad. I know you're hurt. And beneath all that, I know you're scared. An uncertain future is terrifying. And while worrying may give you something to do, it doesn't accomplish a lot. So put this behind you for the night, get some rest to clear your head and wake up tomorrow morning and starting doing. One step at a time, no matter how small, will still take you down that road you're travelling. And once you reach your destination and look back at where you've come from, you'll realize the hardest part of the entire trip was getting started.

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Did anyone find the GA's link? It should be well hidden I guess... :S

And they're all so sanctimonious and self-righteous! Right? Cool beans.

That's okay, it's been a whole many years since I've tried to end my days.

I ended up chosing life. It sucks at times, but there are some darn good moments as well.

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What do you expect to be different in the way people behave, and do you expect it from everyone on forum or just a specific group of users (e.g. Steam friends)? Replace expect with want if it makes more sense...

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Some people are ugly but they have nice personality,some people are lucky they have both
But you, you bitch are ugly as fuck AND have the SHITIEST personality( calling us cunt and asking us for help ??) , oh my god, you look like a fucking transgender dude with long hair jesus christ
Everyone has their own lives, their own bad and good day, I don't give a shit what you've been through, don't just go to the internet and seek for attention by swearing at random people, maybe if you politely ask for help, yes we will give advice but this "Fuck you all" ??....this is unacceptable, bitch you're not the center of the universe, fuck you !
I hope you will live alone and lonely for the rest of your life and when you die you will burn in hell for eternity

Try posting that on facebook , it may fetch a couple dozen likes .

Im sorry for being that guy as usual , but if you want to end it all ... a couple comments on the internet shouldnt be enough to stop you.
Portion of the people ( be it small or big cant tell ) will say stuff to prevent you from doing that not cause they care , but cause they feel thats the right thing to do ... and they are technically right ... but what then ?

I can also be like , hey dont do it there is so much to live for , so much to look forward to ... like... duno stuff ... and maybe just maybe my comment would be the turning point that stop you from doing that .

And then what , should i feel obliged to take care of your mental health and be there to stop you every time you get triggered for attention and decide to use the trump card , and try to make you feel special so you dont commit something stupid ? Not really .

So if you want to actually commit to it , well be my guest , there are a lot of people who would be happy to take your place instead but they cant cause they are already 2 feet under ... while you are here on the internet being all like ....

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I'm already sad and alone ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Drama around every corner,to bad it does not give a fuck either!

Maybe it would have been easier to post this video then such a huge rant of why you hate the world....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpSWj0qrVoE

Also you are not the only one in the world with problems and you should remember there is always someone who has it worse then you!!!

P.S. you can not fuck me because I am not interested in people with such ugly attitudes.

I don't know. While on a certain level fucking all of us does sound a bit kinky yet tempting, I don't think anyone has the stamina for it. Even the core active forum user base is in the thousands. That is a lot of fucking.

Take care