So I am still muddling through, so many things that slipped through my fingers again like a possible job training in the beginning of this year, then i was supposed to get a job coach but her mother died the week i was supposed to have an appointment, and for some reason (stuff like city hall not giving a crap) there can't be a replacement.

In the newspaper i found out about some company that supposedly trains people in different trades (like woodworking) but they also got some computer stuff which would really suit me and even has a contact(s) in IT, but it was right when everyone had vacation so had to wait a month.
i am going there this tuesday to meet, and well it feels like really basically my last chance, because i wouldn't really know what else there would be.

Things are just very tense at home which results in a lot of bickering, which affects my health, mornings are rough (not feeling rested and takes some time before feeling anywhere remotely "normal", which if i can go start working again will make it extra hard.
I still also have to get my blood checked to see if my cholestrol levels dropped further.
But i am still 9 months alcohol free now, and while it's tempting in such events to start again, i just refuse to.

https://www.steamgifts.com/giveaway/JCuSZ/survival (Not a great game but blame groupees, and thought name was fitting).

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Bummer dude... but congratulations on the 9 months!! I imagine your liver is doing much better. Have you tried oats for lowering cholesterol more? They worked for me, like magic.
Keep at it, things are bound to change for the better soon.... I wish I could actually do something to help

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No i haven't tried oats, but i am using Silymarin and one level dropped to normal range, and another dropped but was still a bit high, the liver on the outside looked fine through an echo, the inside, well that could be the cholestrol thing.
I also had a vitamin d shortage so took some supplements but that created an even more upset stomach so i quit those, but i wanted to give that a month and the silymarin some more before taking another blood test else i have to keep taking them to see what really has effect and if i eliminate something again i also have to take a blood test to see if i can go without something again.

Thanks, well you can always send some positive energy my way. :)

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herring and mackerel are really good for cholesterol

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I don't like fish unfortunately, but overall am a picky eater. :(
The dinners as a kid that i had to finish up my plate but i couldn't stomach it (i would really throw up if i tried) that i ended up just stuffing it in my pockets with a piece of paper and flush it later, but in our country we eat a lot of potatoes and vegetables like spinach, sprouts,beets, i should have been born in italy with all the pasta's.
Too bad we didn't have a dog.

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just remember, everything tastes better in a friteuse - meat, cheese, shoes, it's all good.
The two vegetables that really are miraculously transformed are cauliflower (battered) and sprouts (salted). They taste very different fried than boiled, the way they're usually eaten in your country.

As for potatoes, mixing the right things through it can make a world of difference. I know mixing andijvie or boerenkool is normal, but instead try mixing it with baked beans, or cinnamon & sugar & butter, or even sauteed onions and mushrooms.

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This! You should definitely do this even if you are already taking meds for it. It helps. Along with making you less hungry between meals, oatmeal really does help lower cholesterol.

My mum's cholesterol was scary high, Like 8.3, or thereabouts. She's quite slim, so they think it's probably hereditary. She didn't go on the medication though because she wanted to see if she could get it down on her own. She started eating oatmeal every single morning as well as replacing all of her dairy products with their cholesterol-lowering options. Now it's down between 5 and 6, which isn't too bad considering where it was.

And good luck on Tuesday!

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Silymarin is also a natural product that's been used for 2000 years, i need to get more bloodtests done (as i just don't know how the levels are right now) to see if and what more measures have to be taken, i can't go take too many things all at once either, not thinking that would help, and yes probably still nothing wrong with oats, but budget is tight.

Good to hear it helps for your mother though, cholestrol is a tricky thing as you don't really "feel" it if it's high.
I am skinny too btw, 78kg at 193cm.

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Ah, it wouldn't do you any harm alongside whatever you take since it's something many people eat daily anyways. My cholesterol is normal and I still eat it. Not every morning, but still like it, sometimes with some fruit thrown in. It's really cheap too compared to many breakfast cereals that have little to no nutritional value. ;)

Yep, that's the thing. You really don't know, there are no symptoms, and when it's as high as my mum's was, it's very dangerous. You'll probably have to keep an eye on periodically it for the rest of your life, but in a way that's not a bad thing. Knowing about it, you'll be conscious that it's there and probably much healthier than others around you as a result.

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Not saying that oats would be harmful but more like i would know less what the effects of the silymarin would be (until i done a bloodtest, after then yeah i can look at it) . ;)
A lot of cereals got way too much Sugars, to be honest i am one of those persons that uhm skip breakfasts, well or mine would be 2-3 cups of tea really. i know it's not good.

I also got diabetes type 2 (and with that i think IBS too) and a genetic heart thing (they can't say how that will progress, can stay okay or get a pacemaker thing and need a bag of meds like my dad does), i hope cholestrol was mainly because of the alcohol and that it would stay down because i stopped, one or two things are already enough as it is. ;)

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Good luck for tuesday and I hope you stay strong and get better healthwise!

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Thank you.

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Wow, 9 months of abstinence is quite a feat, you can be proud of that! And don't let these things with the job get you down.
I wish you all the best for your health and your job :)

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Congrats on the 9 months. Sending good vibes your way!

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I am not complaining (i got a roof over my head, food etc) as some will have it even worse, but it hasn't been really good ever since i was born, so must have alot of GOOD still coming then, i hope, i keep hoping atleast. without hope one is lost.

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Good luck and stay strong!

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Stay strong!

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I don't really have anything useful to say, but the positive thoughts go your way nonetheless. ;)

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Congratulations for the 9 months free!!
Come on !!! Keep going this way!!

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Thanks you.

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i guess you are a lot like me in some regards. you don't know where you are going or even where you want to go. but as long as you move forward sooner or later you will get where you want to be or need to be and you'll learn a great deal about yourself along the way. and maybe even find actual goals and purpose.
reminds me of a song.
just don't look back all the time. you won't get anywhere and you'll waste your time going in circles again and again.

and good job staying away from the booze. that stuff never helped anyone get anywhere.
i had a small drink myself yesterday to help me "relax" but...yeah. that didn't really work that well.
it's always better to stay focused and not let any distractions get in your way. it's just your mind trying to prevent you from embarking to new shores.

during the last months i've watched quite a few videos on youtube from that jordan peterson guy. it's always interesting to hear what he has to say about psyche and "life" in general.

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While you got kids in kindergarten knowing what they want to be, I never knew what i wanted to be, still don't and that's not helping yeah.
I am just good with computers (should have followed my dad and uncle's advice maybe to start learning programming early), and also a company where i would land has to "feel right".
I got business ideas (Like starbucks way before they came here and got big, had one person i met online who almost joined me but was afraid and turned it down last minute).
But I still got other ideas, but no investment money, and i would just need a kick under my butt to dare it, but noone there to do it).
Here there is this kind of stigma to be a stay at home dad, but i wouldn't even mind being one, just taking care of kids, learn them stuff you know, i am not that ambitious (anymore) like i really have to be that or earn that.

And overall a place to stay, girlfriend, job that's all stuff that can always come, and while men don't have that age issue with having kids as women do, i do want someone my own age and i do feel sometimes that clock is ticking.
That's atleast where i want to go a wife and some kids, preferably with no money issues (which in this economy is getting harder and harder). But without money i am not seeking a woman either, i just can't be like do you want to have dinner with me? But uhm can you pay?

And for that i am still living with my parents (if not i would have been on the streets, and not survived) but it's creating more and more tensions here, also got a 17 year old niece too who has a lot of issues, my parents didn't ask for this, i am not asking for this, it's all like a madhouse sometimes.

Dunno how it works for you but alcohol was always a mood enhancer to me, if i was angry i got more angry, if i was happy i was more happy, not to mention you just always feel extra crap the day after though (especially with hangovers).
I got oxazepam (anything ending in pam just gives you this buzz) which i would just really wish that state we could feel permanent, and why do we have to feel angry, sad etc? but like alcohol i just felt the effects less and less.
I wish i could resort to something else, weed here is legal, but i just don't smoke (although we got it even in chocolate), i tried pure valerian root but that didn't work, i might try these capsules with it, if that's not working either then i wouldn't know what else there is.

Never heard of this guy, and what parts would you find interesting?

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peterson also says that at some point we have to sacrifice our child-like unlimited potential to become anything in order to pick a path and actually become something. ;) comes a little late for us but i'll try to find that video.
i was also considering founding my own company to stand on my own feet but it's kind of hard to come up with an idea or rely on a talent so strong and powerful that you feel confident enough to put your livelihood on it.
on the other hand, doing nothing doesn't get you anywhere either.
actually a friend of mine has been a stay at home dad for the last 10 or 15 years. just recently he got a small job he really likes to earn some extra money for the family and get some sense of accomplishment out of it. and he is doing pretty good i have to admit. i didn't think he would ever find a job he'd keep for more than 6 months at best before getting bored or say "too much hassle". his then-GF and now-wife was always the one working full time and bringing home the cash. stay at home dad isn't the most glorious job in the eyes of some people but fuck them. doing what needs to be done is worth way more than just sitting on your high horse while judging others. that job is best left to the professional SJWs and other useless do-nothing-but-talk-a-lots.

i've been thinking about the kids & family thing as well but there is really no point in doing so.
there are more urgent matters that need attention right now (in my life as well). i've been out of the dating game for a while now or at least i didn't really actively try because it's just that little bit of extra stress and work that you really can't afford at the moment. however if it "just happens" i won't complain either. also i turned down a few offers because the women were..."not my type" to put it mildly.
until then we've got stuff to do.
plus we can be sure the girls are not hanging out with us just because we have got the money, right?

problem with alcohol is you get totally rid of all your problems and feel great but just for a very short time. next morning all problems come crashing down on you again plus hangover. but i guess i don't need to tell you. ;)
2 or 3 times per year i get the chance to smoke some weed with friends since i just don't know the right people but when i do i enjoy it way more than getting drunk. all your problems and fears don't just disappear but the shrink to a more realistic size that you can handle more easily. and that effect lasts for maybe three days and not just one night. i would prefer having one or two smokes per week over getting drunk every day right here and right now.
also there are these electrical pipes and you just need one tiny bit to take off. can't be hard to find over in holland. so there's no need to build your own special cigarette with tabacco and stuff, that's just annoying to me.

i watch pretty much anything that looks even remotely interesting so i'm having a hard time picking videos you might find interesting. just take a look at the channel videos and stuff.
PICK YOUR DAMN SACRIFICE - Powerful Motivational Video | Jordan Peterson
CLEAN YOUR ROOM - Powerful Life Advice | Jordan Peterson
Jordan Peterson - Why Men Are Bailing Out
Jordan Peterson on the meaning of life for men. MUST WATCH

just some ideas. there are others i don't want to link for obvious reasons but i guess you'll know them when you see them. ;)

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Not the same angle but I feel with you - in my last topic I said I'm back on track, true, but engine still not running. But yours seams to start?!

Wishing you strength, good luck, improving health and to be at least ok - of course hoping it to be better.

Really have to think about Bugs Bunny with that topic name
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R2_Mn-qRKjA (not Bugs Bunny though)

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No not by far, first i have to hear if they can really help me tommorow, then i also have to see to what job i could eventually and if i can feel happy in it, and then that's just all a start where others already started building a life when they are like 2 decades younger. and with an economy that's getting worse and worse when costs keep increasing, even if it starts it's still a long long road.

Thanks i wish you the same.

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9 months is awesome! You should feel proud of yourself!

Keep it up and good luck!

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Thank you.

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Sorry to hear about your mother. As for the vitamin D shortage, I think that is pretty common with most people. I'm on a multi vitamin as well as just a vitamin D gel cap. You can get vitamin D gel caps that are pretty inexpensive. I really don't see how that would upset your stomach. Anyway, wishing you well on getting the computer training and staying away from the alcohol for good.

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Because i already have an upset stomach to begin with (the cholestrol/liver/alcohol maybe and stress), maybe irritable bowl syndrome.
According to some medical sites i read, too much of a vitamin is actually not good for you either. and it gave me some of the sideeffects it also mentioned.

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Congrats on the 9 months! 👍 Best of luck tomorrow and I'll keep my fingers crossed! 🤞

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Thank you.

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