September 9th, 2016

This won't be a traditional bundle thread with charts...

And this might be sudden and new...

But I have decided to leave Steam Gifts.


You might be asking... why? Or you might be feeling happy / confused /sad / etc.

I joined SG a year ago and I absolutely loved it. It brings me a lot of joy being able to assist others. I devote a lot of my life towards volunteer-work and meeting new people, and the past year that I've been on SG has given me the chance to reach out to people across the world through a virtual platform and a love for gaming, good deals, and friendship.

But ... I have been thinking a lot lately... and I believe it would be best for my well-being to leave Steam Gifts and move on to other opportunities.

Steam Gifts has brought me a lot of happiness and friendships, but as of lately, there has also been a lot of negativity, hatred, and criticism.

You might say that this is normal, that life is full of good and bad. That I must grow up, not take things so personally, and face reality, that I can't please everyone and be liked by everyone. That there are haters, friends, lovers, and acquaintances.

I understand that completely. It is not the criticism that has made me decide to leave. But at this time being, this isn't a very healthy environment me to remain in. I have found much support here, but it also has brought me many painful feelings and loss. Lately, much has been weighing on my in my personal life, and it has been hard for me to become more involved on Steam Gifts knowing that I may be facing more opposition and negativity. Many of whom I considered friends have turned their backs on me; and the ongoing hostility in so many areas here has made me reconsider my place here on Steam Gifts. I have placed a lot of value on the friendships and the work that I've helped contribute to here. Because I value the people here very much, I also feel a great deal of pain and hurt.

But, I am not bitter for the experiences I've had. I will cherish all the memories and friends I've made.

I never posted charts and announcements for attention.

I never wanted to take "reign" or "control" Steamgifts. And I never have meant to come off as superficial, aggressive, or that I wanted control of anything. Over time though, it seemed that people felt that was the case. And although there are many of you who still do see the value in my work and my efforts (efforts and time and energy that I want to spend on all of you because I CARE, not because I want to be the spotlight or center of attention), I have become weary and a bit broken by the other side of the story, a darkness that continues to grow despite everything.

I am not asking for any pity, or attention, and I do not post this in order to make people feel bad or sorry for me. All I want is for everyone to be happy, healthy, and friendly.


I thank all of you who still believe in me and consider me a good person. Thank you for being patient, kind, considerate, and supportive. Thank you for showing me what a family of online community members is. Thank you for filling my days with fun, laughter, smiles, and good conversations. Thank you for being here for me and a place for me to be myself and share my personality and my desire to help all of you. Thank you for accepting me as "Rachellove" and as an individual. Thank you for trusting me to post bundles and letting me know of them as well.

I am sorry to leave all of you, but I want each and every one of you all to know that I do still care about you and consider you a family.

Thank you again for allowing me to have a presence in your lives. It has been a great honor to serve all of you and to have been a point of trust at some point or the other by allowing me to create these bundle threads and being myself. I appreciate all the love, concern, and friendship that you have shown me. I will never forget those who I have met here and have become close to.

May you all find joy, good health, and success in your lives. That is all I ask in return, and that would make me most at ease and happy knowing the people I care about are doing well.


Please Note:

It is not the stress or overwhelming work of thread-making that has informed my decision to leave. I make time to do these threads, and they really don't stress me out.

Many people have offered to help me before, to which I have accepted. I do not work alone. I have had many of you help me with charts, help me with errors, help with hints, etc. I want to thank all of you for keeping me informed, updated, and on my toes. My life has always been busy, but I have tried to make time for these threads and I take pride in being able to help others, as well as being trusted to be a helper.

I will not be maintaining any remaining bundle threads that I have made, including the Master List of Ongoing Bundles - w/ RaCharts™. However, I trust that many wonderful people after me will be willing to continue to help with bundle threads and make beautiful charts to help all of you in your bundle / game puchasing.


I will leave this thread up, but I won't be actively responding to any messages or comments. If you could, I would appreciate if you also do not message me on Steam as well. I know this might sound a bit harsh, but this has been a hard decision to make, and I ask for some privacy at this time. Thank you ❤

8 years ago*

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So long and thanks for the fish.

But topics like this are the reason some people should really reach inside themselves and think is their little personal drama and toxicity really worth ruining the best the community has to offer.

8 years ago
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Thanks for all you provided here, wish you better times in real life.

8 years ago
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=(

8 years ago
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:(
Hope you find something that makes you happy and fulfilled :)

8 years ago
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Hey Rach,

I think normally someone would talk about how they are sad to see you go, but instead I'm going to say that in a way I am glad because it could mean that instead you are pursuing whatever it is that is going to ultimately make you happy in your life, rather than just remaining resigned to the status quo. I think that's important in life. It's obvious from your words that disillusionment has set in for some reason, and I'm not going to ask why because it is not my business, but I will say that I certainly understand what that feels like and what it means to lose enthusiasm for or enjoyment of something, whether because of the actions or choices of others or for different reasons. This place and its nature, like many others has both its positive and negative aspects, both beneficial and (unfortunately) unhealthy and/or toxic ones as well. I've always seen that and it's why I try to limit my time here, even if I don't always succeed so well at it. Much like yourself, and many others I'm sure, sooner or later I will leave this place too and move on to spend that time on other things that are more important to me. I have always known that that day will come. I think that's just a part of life. It has phases and different nuances to it and sometimes certain things come and go or only stick for so long, while others might remain for a long time. People can be like that too actually. Anyway, maybe I've gone off on a bit of a tangent here.

I know I've been quiet lately and we haven't spoken much, but like yourself I have some tough things going on in my life as well. I would like to say that I always appreciated everything that you contributed here even though you sure as hell didn't have to do any of it or owed anything to anyone. If there is one thing that I am sure of... from having interacted with you, and just from everything you have done here, the way you present yourself as a person, the courteous and reverent way I have seen you deal with people, to your words and thoughts that you have poured out here at times..... it's that you have an amazingly good heart and the world is a better place for it. I just wanted you to know that, and that if you ever feel like you could use some advice on something or would just like to talk to someone you are always welcome to reach out to me. Best wishes, love.

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:(

8 years ago
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thanks your charts are great and helpful

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Feel like year 1-2 nice. 2-3 trolls. 4-5 mix of both.

Feel like during my 3rdish year the forums were pretty bad.

8 years ago
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i skipped years 2.75-->4 of SG and just left because the inclusion of site-wide whitelists/blacklists at the hands of all arbitrary users didnt sit right with me

i liked my first year here, so far i like coming back minus losing someone i didnt get a chance to know well but has been the most helpful thus far because of her threads , FAQs, and charts (mikey being #2 most helpful and a friend to me since coming back)

8 years ago
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not really skanda, it's just human trait that we use to remember just good things, while removing bad memories with time. I've joined ~1 year later than you, then maybe it was different in this 1 year, but anyway, since I joined not much changed. QQ topics were around always, it just changed from "I get 0CV from this bundle gasme" to "I got blacklisted by someone!", from "I lost CV" to "I lost level". Offensive trolls been around as well - they come and go and you simply forget about them. For example in 1-2 years noone will remember who konrad was, but we'll get a few new ones in this time. Personally offensive users been around as well. I've seen users threathening each other, using vulgar language and all kind of shite - same 4 years ago as nowadays.

The only change I can think of is that 4 years ago there was far less users on SG. Thus it's obvious that numerical volume of bad apples was smaller, but percentage remains the same. Back then you would get 1 hostile topic and 5 normal ones. Now you simply get 5 hostile topics and 25 normal ones in the same time. It may looki like it got worse, but in reality I think it remains more or less the same.

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Sorry to see you go, your threads were really helpful. Sadly, you can't do anything in life without at least some people hating on you simply for doing things (at all, or better than them, or before them, or because they are lazy to do those things, or because they don't like those things, or because they think it can be done better but don't want to do it, or... reasons are many and many people don't need reasons to hate). If that negativity is affecting your outlook on life, your health or whatever, you should take care of yourself first and move away from toxicity. People will survive, it will be harder to follow all the bundles and many will fail, but bundle culture will survive and with time negative thoughts about your project will fade and only a warm memory will remain of a time bygone when a good spirit guided buyers through the troublesome waters of wallet rapids.

8 years ago
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I hope it aint too much but how can it be when its about your person. Well I dont find any good words to express my depth of earnest feelings towards you and all the hard work you did for this neat community.

„The greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it.“
William James (1842 - 1910)

Meant into this digital scenery, your such beloved work & everything based on it, which were created out of it, was everytime highly appreciated, deeply honored and such a huge pillar for this community, that it kinda feels like this place will be a littlebit smaller without ya.

But many if not all, but the only important of us will everytime it pops a bundle into sight, think with good mood about you and will bless ya with good vipes, which may touch ya in hardtimes or down feeling.

So many gratitudes for sharing your thoughts, time, friendship, work, efforts, life, ideas with us. We wont hinder you on your way, we just can say "Thank you, for letting us being a timepart of our life and social connection"

With love and hope to reach somethin´ even more, live fullfilling and for your big good heart also needed way of living, with regards good bye one of my dearest friends I´ve found here. Best of everything you need, I know you will achieve great results in whatever you will do in future!

Thank you rachellove we all wish ya everything good, god will bless ya positive way of living with a positive outcome.
Your immense friendly charisma and polite personalitiy will be your key, we would like to share further time with y,a but maybe, just maybe you look at this time & community back, lift a little smiley in your face and can go on freely...

Well you know, english aint my motherlanguage,so I hope that this text gets into right perspective.
Bye my friend.. reach out for the stars, you definitley belong there!

8 years ago
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It is sad to see the most loved/whitelisted user of SG leaving because of negativity :/
I wish you the best Rachel, good luck.

8 years ago
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Tank you for your time here, I was new but RaCharts was among the stuff I really loved in SG. Goodbye :)

8 years ago
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BYE RACHEL!

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Thank you so much for everything you did for sg and especially for that one time you really helped cheer me out (and yes, I know you don't remember it, but I do and I'll never forget it and that's all that matters to me).
May life bring you the joy and happiness you deserve, Rachel :)

8 years ago
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Good luck. Also "real" friends don't turn their backs. So those you mentioned arnt true friends. I read a few comments on here one time and I believe it was directed at you/involved you. It was about you using a word to describe a bundle or site that someone said showed bias or whatever. If something like that has caused you to decide to leave I need to say that some people you will meet on the internet are pretty fucked in the head. These are the type of individuals who rarely see the light of day and have one form of disorder or another. I think I am rather greatful I don't need/seek the approval of others nor do I care about their opinions. I am my own person and only my opinions of myself mean anything. I don't know if it's possible to block anyone on here so that you can't see their comments but blocking/ignore features are my favorite. So many people bicker back and forth and I just hit block, laugh and move on.

Be yourself and anyone who is not happy with that truely doesnt matter

8 years ago
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Rachel,

I valued all the love you shared with us.

Thank you

8 years ago
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Thanks for everything Rachel.

8 years ago
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Rachel, I am surprised at how much I have come to depend on your threads on almost a daily basis. And I have never even said thank you Thank you. Thank you for saving me time and trouble, by taking the time and trouble on yourself. Unfortunately, when you put yourself out there in the public eye, you inevitably become a target for those just looking for something/someone to tear down. Please remember, it's not you that they hate, but themselves. I suspect that you are a rather terrific person, both kind and generous - don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Good luck to you - I wish you well :)

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Rest in Peace, rachellove

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Hello Rachel

Thank you for the help you gave to me and the community
i am really really sad this morning my connection is sh. and among that have managed to read your message and i must say it make me sad.
You are a real value for those who have the chance to be near you.

Take your time; life is not easy and sometimes too much hurts need to be "solved" alone (NOT to much)
i am sure that you will manage to passed this difficult moment.

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8 years ago
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Umm, that sounds sad and I dont know about anything that happened since I am not active in the 'forums'. Tho we dont know each other and I just 'know' you from the bundle section I always admired the work and effort you put into that. Maybe I am a bit misanthropric but I guess 80% of the people are dumb/ignorant/selfish/superficial. Try to avoid them. Look out for the other 20% and keep them close. I wish you all the best - and thanks a lot for making the life of hundreds of people easier. :)

8 years ago
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:(. Very sad news. You always was very helpful (even answered my on some questions ;) ) and i loved your posts about bundles etc. You invested time to do it and i appreciate it. And most important you are very cool/nice person :).
Would be happy if you would change your mind, but anyway i want to thank you for a contribution here:).

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