So a few months back, I left the site, https://www.steamgifts.com/discussion/zuE9S/its-my-cakeday-and-another-goodbye Several of you asked me to come back and give an update and I'm sitting around with nothing in particular to do this morning, so....

Overall, I've done really well with sticking to my goals, I've kept my diet changes, still avoiding snacks, soda etc, and working out occasionally. I've lost ~70lbs and am almost back to my highschool weight from 20 years ago (172 now, 165 then). I've started dating an absolutely amazing woman who inspires me daily to be better than I am, she's 12 years my junior and I dont deserve her at all. I'm not sure what she see's in me, but I'm glad she's a part of this journey with me.

I've started the process of getting my license back after 10 years, it's still going to be a while before they allow me to drive, but at least I'm on the path to accomplishing it. I have purged most everything I owned, and redecorated my entire apartment, which helped incredibly so with my depression. I no longer feel trapped at home when I am here, and actually enjoy my surroundings now. Which may seem silly, it certainly did to me, but it had a huge impact on my life. That along with buying all new clothes, which helped my confidence in public, have had the biggest impact on my life in general.

I'm still not as social as I'd like, and my circle of friends, although much larger than any point prior in my life is still relatively small, but I am going out, and 'being normal' on a regular basis. We have 2 trips planned for next year already, one to canada and one to south carolina for the solar eclipse next summer. I haven't been seeing my kids as much as I'd like, their mother does not like that I've started to make something of my life I think, she certainly doesnt like the woman I'm dating, either way, she keeps them from me more often than not. But when I do see them our relationship is so much better than it used to be. Largely due to me leaving the computer alone and spending more time with them.

I've also recently changed jobs, to something much closer to home, which has saved me a ton of money, and allows me much more time to look for more fulfilling work. It's not that I dislike the work I do now, its just not very rewarding, and I'm trying to find happiness in all aspects of my life, plus I wouldnt mind making better money of course.

I know depression and apathy have been running themes with a lot of the people here, for as long as I've been a member. And I offer this advice, if you are not happy, start making changes. It seems incredibly daunting at first, I know. But it all started for me just by changing my diet. Little changes, one after the other can make all the difference. I still have my days, where I wont leave the house, and just feel like everything is a waste of time. But they come less often, and go away much faster than ever before. I hope you all are well, and that you have a wonderful holiday season.

Push

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This sounds great. I'm glad things are going so well for you! I wish you an awesome holiday season too =)

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Good to see you're doing so well, Push.
Congrats on the weight loss, new job, and girlfriend, and I wish you continued success ::3
Happy Holidays, too!

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Great to hear!
Keep up with all the changes you done, hope your life gets even better :)
And happy upcoming holidays!

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Congrats on your progress!

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Great to hear you're doing better. It's inspiring. :)

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Numerous positive life changes, that is pretty damn cool.

I hope you can inspire others (including myself).

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It all starts with a desire to change. Take it one step at a time and always keep moving forward.

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Good to hear that someone is getting their life on track ^_^
I wish you luck and hope you can keep the upward trend.

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I'm happy to hear you're doing well now. Keep it up and have a great holiday season :)

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Glad to hear it. Now finish the year with a bang, I know you can do it!

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Thanks for the update, Push! Actually you crossed my mind quite a few times in the past few months/weeks, as I found your leaving letter to us so damn inspiring. I had wondered what had happened to you and felt good for you, because you obviously managed to accomplish some change, as you were absent from this place.
So happy I was right!
I wish you all the best for things to come. Just keep inspiring :D

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I never set out to inspire anyone, but if anyone takes my story as an inspiration to better themselves, I'm all for it. Thanks for thinking of me.

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This thread is amazing, thanks for posting. And keep it up!

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That's a great update, I'm really glad to see you're happy and sticking with a lot of the changes you made! It is so simple, like the old commercials said "Just do it".

I have always struggled with laziness and a lack of self-motivation. It's not a matter of having willpower, if that's even a thing, it's just a matter of deciding to do something and doing it, which is surprisingly difficult! It is scary to make changes, it is uncomfortable, we may worry about being judged by others, failing publicly, etc.

So: Nice job and keep up the good work! I hope I can take some inspiration from the success you're having and start taking care of some of the things I want to do. Thanks for sharing your story!

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That was great to read! I don't know you, but I'm so much happier to hear that you're so much happier!!

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I'm glad for you, push :)

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Great news Push, glad to hear things are going better than expected/hoped. :)
Keep at it, as you get smaller and more focused, your world is getting bigger :D

The mother of your kids might have some slight misconceptions about your inspiration for all this and be a bit jealous that this change didn't come sooner, which is understandable.
You are doing this for you and started it long before a new woman appeared on the horizon. She will probably become more accepting as time goes by :)

Go you! :)

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Hey! Your post was the first post I read when I first started becoming more of a regular on the Steam Gifts forums! I remember that post, when you said you were leaving! It was one of the first posts I read here. I'm glad you came back to give up an update, and it's great that you've started this journey and have had a positive outcome. I know it's not over, I'm sure you'll continue to grow, but for now, good-luck and keep it up! :)

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Glad to hear you're doing alright mate. Cya next time :)

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Great, nice to hear that you are doing so well. I'm happy for you, keep up the good work <3

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Glad to see you're doing well. Hopefully more people will be inspired by the changes you've made.

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Wonderful :)

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Thanks all for the support.

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