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I can't speak for what goes on behind the scenes in the world of support and I may have missed some of the bigger conflicts you've had here, but everything I've seen of you in this community has been positive. While you can be aggressive at times, I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing. You get the job done, you get it done right, and if what is right is outside of your power to be done, you make it known. In no way do I think you have had a negative impact on this site at any time. You are one of the individuals that drew me into this community with your creative contests and I would always consider this a lesser place with you gone.

That said, as others mentioned, please place yourself before this community. We aren't worth any amount of your suffering and if you think slowing down/cutting back with your responsibilities here would help your situation, by all means do so.

Hey Jade. Everyone here appreciates the work you've done/doing (except maybe those on the receiving end of the hammer). But at the end of the day you've got to what makes you feel the happiest. If that means no longer modding or even quitting steam gifts all together then so be it, but I'm sure you'll always be welcomed back with open arms. I too feel the forums have started to become a bit tiresome and whiny, but on the other hand the chat is still just as much fun.
Just wanted to say, we appreciate what you do and who you are. We will support any decision you make as long as you feel it is the right one. Stay strong and keep well.

Yo Jade

I think you do very well at your job here at SteamGifts And in the chat. You make us laugh a lot. At time when you come to ban someone from the chat you make funny for the other users around which is kinda cool. All the people that you ban almost always deserve the ban, and even when someone gets a ban and should not have been, it just shows that that you are careful and always on the eye out for "trouble makers".

Stay! :>

-HCG

Haven't read all the longer comments posted before, just some of the earlier ones.

If you are still an assett to the site? Yes. I think SG needs someone with the, well, not really straight to the point attitude, but does say what it is about. If you get my point there.

You don't need all just politically correct comments ona site like SG, that role fits you good IMHO.

If the site is still an asset to your life? Hinestly, after reading your post, it seems to me like it is not. But you yourself are the only one that can truly know that.

Does the scale tip over to the enjoyment of being part of this site (and mod) or does it tip over towards the annoyyances of support tickets and the forums that you don't like? You could scratch away the mod an support tickets part if it is tipped towards annoyance currenctly.

Other than that, I don't really have any 'wise life lessons' for you. :)

Hello Jade, your article forced me to remember my thoughts about this site and thought of my being here too. It's always hard to say something more complicated for me in english, because it's not my native language ... so if anyone reads this, sorry for my mistakes in this comment and in all comments I have done before :D.

Well, firstly I must say, that I understand your thoughts about the site and in many ways I agree with you. I agree even with your leaving site some time ago, even with your comming back. What is more important than anything, is your life or ... life of all people here. Not only hard or good feeling about community here, but your life, your time which you can spend with your fiancee or just somewhere else than by shining box with keyboard. I think you have done your work very well here and your effort was more than enough. You have right to be upset with all that rule-breaking users and so ...

I think that you should take a thought ... if you take a break from managing this site, will you come here just to talk with others in forum, enter giveaways or making ones, or go the group chat to see your friends? Or is that more special thing that you have more responsibility and even more - you like that you can do someting for others, helping users or solving their problems ...

Maybe I can't be really clear what I have in my mind, well sorry again for this. Please, take my big thanks for all you have done here and I hope I can count in few people who know you a little more than as some staff guy.

Good luck with your decission, but my last thought ... SG will never be the same without the Jade guy! ;-)

Hey, you can't leave -- not until I beat you fair and square in Trivia Knights.
On a more serious note, I've always thought you were doing a hell of a good work as a support instead of (...no calling out, right? Everyone knows who I'm talking about, though.). I don't really think leaving this site would be good for you now, since you've declared that advantages overshadow disadvantages. And you're definitely not doing it any harm, I have no idea where you've got that from, but it's bullshit.
Just take care, man. Better times will definitely come.

i'm a noob but the amount I've seen in my noobness seemed good (and I really kinda doubt you've done harm like you fear anyway). do what you want/whats best for you. I'd vote stay and I wouldn't vote go but you don't know me anyway

(i wouldn't have posted but recent is what you're worried about so as somebody with no idea of the past who doesn't know you enough to be biased / no reason to white lie or spare feelings I think you're doing well and certainly not harmful(support can be tough, people'll yell at you but they're just crazy anyway and deserved the ban or whatever they're screaming about to make you feel down). but if its pressure or stressful enough you feel you have to leave couldn't you just reduce or stop the support load you handle until you feel better and still hang out on the chat/forum anyway? it doesn't seem like it'd be so black and white go or stay)

It's up to you, i'd say if you feel you want to then do it. If not don't.

I've been around here since the rust and dust layers were barely even settled, and I can say you're a good guy Jade. Your personality is distinct, and never let it change. You are who you are, and don't let stress and depression get to you. This may seem a bit odd to say, but I have my reasons. I don't personally know you or have talked to you really, but I've observed big site users like yourself for a long time now and I can definitely tell that gradually something is more and more amuk with you. I'm not surprised to see this thread at all sadly. I would like to just say that you have to stay positive no matter what. It seems to me that you really just need to take a break, again I suppose. The spice of life is variety, so follow that mentality. I would say take a break from perhaps computers in general and go out and try new things. If you feel the urge, come back whenever you like. If you decide to move on from SG, that's your decision and no one else can stop you. However, clearly this is something worse than just a bad site. I personally see the community as halfway good and halfway bad right now, not ALL bad. If there's such a large discrepancy like that, something's up. There's a solution to every conundrum, you merely have to search hard for it.

Good luck Jade. My best of wishes to you in any future endeavors.

Your friend,
Pixel

Let me know if you ever want to talk man. ;)

I don't know you. But according to you post only, I can say that you take to heart everything on this site. You should relax and take it easy. People change everytime, and people here change too and you can do nothing with this. And people, who was there six month ago, was not better, they just differ from us now. Try to undersand it and may be you will see something really good nowdays here. I dont know THATREALLYCOOLSTEAMgIFTS.COM, but I know this steamgifts.com and this community and I say, that community here one of the best communities I have ever saw. Sorry for my bad English.

Here's my two cents:

You have seen how amazing steamgift can be. You have seen how shitty it can be.

Without you, this community can stay shitty.

With you, it may still be shitty, but at least it has the chance of you setting it straight.

Ok, I don't know you but for some reason I decided to read your wall of text, then I read most of the posts and then your original post again. So I'll give you my opinion. I noticed your use of the words love and hate, the 1st wins the 2nd, which is positive, and I want to look for positive points in your letter. Because you touched sensitive topics as depression and even suicide. I knew a suicide fellow once. I'm passing myself through a depressive parenthesis of my life. Sorry but you are asking the wrong question, not go away from sg, but go away from depression! That and only that must be your priority. You have got to look inside yourself and find your personal recipe to win depression and reach happyness. Sg can bepart of the process, in either way. Maybe it's better to completely leave, maybe not, I don't know. I see you love the site and don't want to harm it, but you better solve your problems before trying to solve other's. People will step up valid for supporting and modding. The oldies can be elsewhere, but there's good people around. Take in consideration the oponion you'll get from your peers and the site owner about the way you can influence the site, and think for yourself about how the site influences you. For sure gaming can be alienating, and I am going myslf to reduce my gaming time. On the contrary chatting can be good imho, even steam chat. I truly believe that any effort must be done to prevent people from suicide. I can't do much more than to speak with you and listen to you, it's not much but I'm available if you want (in that case just add me). Surely your relationships, fiancee, etc will also play a big role, don't steal time to them. Sorry for typos, I'm writing from my tablet. Best of luck and take care, Andrea.

JUST GO......and do what you enjoy and you are right, a lot of really active people have gone or aren't that active anymore, like Kaitlyn, Cult, Yatterman,..., but you did a really good job despite all those haters saying otherwise.
If you think it's time to move on or step down from your moderator work, then it's probably the best for you, and I'm sure most people will respect that and I will for sure (if that means anything to you ^^).
Also I'm sorry about you being depressed from time to time (is it also because of SG?), I hope it gets better, but I won't know because I don't know how being depressed feels like, so I can't say much about it......Before I write bullshit, because of being tired and exhausted, I leave you with this comment now.
PS: I miss your Creative Giveaways :)

Mr. Jade ^^

The community has changed significantly from the good old days. Ideally you should be around the parts you enjoy and not around the parts you don't. Never let responsibilities of virtual communities take over your life. The internet will always have problems and you can't (and shouldn't) fix them all. So decide how much you can give and give no more. It's exactly like a budget, but with your time and effort. :)

So take it easy and remember that you're only human. The world doesn't end if people's problems go unresolved. Yours should always come first. And in my case, I must solve the problem of me being hungry. :D

Just follow your heart, no one can tell you what to do, it's always up to you.

Yeah, the community has gone to shit it's a shame because the site used to be so fun and now it's nothing but shitposting, spam, and unfunny memes. It's like /r/gaming and kotaku commenter have gotten control of the site and I don't even want to think of how support is since the forums are already bad.

But we've already talked about this, and I'm pretty sure that the only people who like the current shitty state of the site are the shiposters themselves, and if nothing (more) can be done and you're finding it a drag to be on the site more than anything else then step down.

If you thought the site got worse do you think it's going to become magically better by how things are right now? You did great, and if you're no longer liking how things are you should definitely step down. I always appreciated the things you did, and in no way have I ever disagreed with your actions. It sounds like you need rest.

http://steamcommunity.com/groups/AntiJade March 10 2012 never forget ;_;
It was a pleasure being one first 5 people you kicked when your first became a mode.

After reading this, I feel like I know you better. I understand you better.
In my opinion, I would really miss you if you leave but if you think that's the right thing for you, do it.
You should try care less about SteamGifts, relax. I'm sure it's too much pressure, forget about it for a while. unless you miss SteamGifts, of course. :)
Good luck, anyways.

I've always though you were a cool dude Jade. Frankly, I'm on your side, I feel as though cracking the whip a bit could help the site a lot. I think you're doing good work, and if my opinion counts for anything, I hope you stay on. But I understand if you don't want to.

I don't know you, don't think I've ever encountered you, and I'm only going on what I read in your post.

If you're feeling suicidal, you need to seek professional help. If you've encountered any thoughts of suicide in the past week you need to seek treatment now. Stop bullshitting on your computer and get yourself checked into a clinic where you can get the help you need. I'm absolutely serious.

Jade, dude. Whatever you decide, I'll support you 100%. I've never had a problem with your moderating style, though I know many have. If this site doesn't give you any enjoyment, you need to do something that does. If this site still makes you smile (even if it's when applying a permaban to some fuckwad) then stay around. Whatever happens, know that I know you're a good guy and that you've improved my time here. A lot.

Also, congrats on the engagement. :D

I think that's a pure example when you're so engaged with the work you're doing that it replaces everything you have in your life at all.

Psychologists say, that it might be rather harmful to your psycho to put one (any) thing above all others. You always should find some time for other things. For example, if you love a person and you put everything you have, everything you ever wanted and needed aside to care about that person. You live for her, you think all the time about her, and you start each day praising her name... Sharing is caring, I agree, but what should be asked in this case - do you get the same amount of feedback in response? Are your needs satisfied by the one who you love? Being focused on one and one thing only for a long period of time replaces love with frustration, care with neglecting. Now let's say, what if you're dumped? What if steamgifts is closed tomorrow? Have you thought about anything else you have in your life? Something that is dear to you, some hobby or some thing that may bring you joy - other than checking threads and making responses? Personally, I can say that any hobby can turn out hell, when it becomes your one primary job. I loved concerts, than I started writing reviews about them. I got vip tickets for the best shows for free, I could go with my girlfriend to almost any show I wanted, but suddenly I noticed that all the fun was lost - I'm not feeling excited anymore - I was there to write a review.

I could list some other examples from personal experience, but in general I think you're simply very tired from spending so much time here, each time you're here - you're doing your job. You're doing it perfectly, but you need to switch your attention to something else, or at least split it between different things, that might bring balance and restore your wellbeing again. You need to feel less responsibility for everything and for everybody, you need to be a mere user of steamgifts sometimes, not a mod. Then you'll start loving this site again.

<3 It gets better, bruddah.

Awwww D: I am sorry you are feeling down falcon.

Depression sucks, I know. You gotta do what you need to survive, and if this site is bringing you down then it might not be worth the investment.

I also agree about the majority of threads: spam and whining.

Jade and bobo are my two favorite mods on the site. I know I am not very active in terms of high value giveaways or even forums for that matter, but when I am on here these two stand out to me the most.

I think jade is a pretty awesome mod, and I like all of their responses (ambiguous because I haven't quite figured out their sex yet). They always make me laugh hysterically.

The important thing though, is do what feels best to you Jade. It would suck if you left, but I wouldn't blame you if you did. I've only been here for 10 months or so, but I have definitely seen the shift in the community since when I first joined. Nowadays the site is more CV (read epeen) oriented and its strayed very far from what I imagine cg had visioned for the website. Granted, we still have some great people here with us.

I just wish you the best regardless of your decision. I don't know you personally or never really got to know you through the site (other then your amazing rebuttals to even the most incoherent poster). Spending time with your fiance may be the better alternative to the constant BS you may or may not have to deal with on the daily here at SteamGifts. You seem like an amazing person and I'm absolutely sure some people here will be absolutely heartbroken if you left.

I understand a little bit what you are going through with the whole depression thing, as my mother herself struggles with it daily. I know you may not get all the answers you need from this topic, but hopefully in the support ticket, among some of the people you are closer with, will help clear your mind a bit and help to clarify the best course of action. Stay strong Jade and I truly wish you the best.