I'm glad to read that things are okay, and that you took action to do something beneficial for your situation. That is a big part - having some kind of a support system, and a plan, since others can really give us a better perspective on things when they become grim. I have a lot of this with my lyme, since I constantly feel like hell, and with my quality of life, financial status, and other issues that are stressful - it all plays into it.

Some doctors say I am depressed sometimes, but it would be unhealthy for somebody to be continuously happy with this kind of deadly and painful stuff going on all the time, so I would be far more worried about somebody acting cheeful with a lot of maladies having mental issues than somebody that has realistic reasons to feel bad sometimes, and be grieving the life they once had, and the bad days that crop up. I really wonder how these people that diagnose me as having depression act when they get hit with the flu or something. Are they jumping up and down cheering and saying aloud, "It's such a great day to be alive!". Nah, they're laid out in bed wishing it would end, almost guaranteed!

My best days are not as good as my worst days were before I got sick, so it's definitely a nightmare I wouldn't wish on anybody. A lot of people unfortunately do take their lives eventually since it takes a certain type of inner strength to get through this kind of constant barrage of torment, but I have learned a lot about myself, about life, and about some of the silver lining and wisdom that goes along with suffering... It's not all bad, and I would've not had the same character I have today had I not been humbled the way I have been with so many illnesses and medical problems (over 20). Sorry for the sob story pity-pot sounding response, but yeah, it is about my mindset and perspective. I think to myself there may one day be relief, and that keeps me going. Also the fact that I have made it this long. If I took myself out today, why did I waste all those years suffering! I'd feel like a fool, so I refuse to even do more than let it be a passing consideration on occasion when I'm really really in bad shape. I have some stuff that helps, like herbals, and other things for anxiety and my pain, which can take the edge off, thank God. Also, people I care about would miss me. I don't want that to happen any sooner than it has to happen, because they are loved. :D

I hope you don't feel bad too often though as far as your mind goes. Feel free to talk any time you want, and if I am around, I'll do what I can to help with whatever it is that's bugging you. Just a show of support can help. The more, the merrier! Take care no matter what! This thread is super important. I find it especially so around the holidays. A lot of people get more depressed around certain ones, and I think most notably December, and carry-over into January, because of all the celebrations.

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