I wish i had friends ;-;

TL: DR at the bottom of the post;

Everything I do, keeping on the right medication at the right time, how I treat people, how I talk to people, how I behave in front of them......It's all to try and give them a better upbringing than I had. I didn't have a bad upbringing, as such. I never really wanted for anything, we always had food on the table, birthdays and Christmas's all being the best we could do at the time, we had clothes that fit, every now and then a designer label......The only kind-of glitch in it was how I USED to behave. I was a less-than-stellar person to know or be around.

I started with drugs at a fairly young age, which in turn turned to addiction, which led to thefts to fund that addiction, I never went to school, never did any schoolwork when I was there. I did all that because I was bored. It got to the point where I was officially called "Out of Parental Control" by a judge and I ended up in a children's home for a while, (I believe US call it "Juvie", although that spelling might be incorrect). I was stealing, fighting, the police searched my parent's house 5 times in 3 weeks, that;s when it got too much.

I got to age 18, despite many people believing I would be dead by then, and the only thing I hadn't tried was settling down, so I did. I quit the drugs, fighting, robbing people, everything. It took about 5 years to get the trust back from my family, with good reason, and I look back now and think, "I did all that, my kids won't have to". I've spoken to my daughter about my past behaviour, I've never hidden anything from her, or lied, and have said, if she goes out and gets drunk, it'll happen soon, she's 13, I've told her to come back here. I'll stay awake and keep an eye on her. Her mother would yell, shout and scr4eam, send her to bed and ignore her until the morning, She could choke on vomit during the night, she'll need checking on every now and then. I've also, (and this bit is what I'm most happy/proud about), I ASKED her not to try drugs and if she wants to know what it's like, to ask me, as opposed to me TELLING her not to try them, which people did to me and I took more just to piss them off. She knows I won't lie to her about it, I'll describe what it was like, the comedown from it,the good and the bad, everything.

I really do believe it's created a more powerful bond with her, with me asking politely rather than demanding. I promis3ed to always tell her the truth and she's done the same for me. Whether that will withstand her teenage years? I guess we'll see.

Also, my son. He's 7 and autistic due to complications brought on by meningitis at 5 weeks old, I do the same for him, obviously not the whole drink and drugs bit yet, and, as I can't run around and play football/soccer with him, for the first 6 years of his life, it was tough. I'll openly admit that there was way more than just the single incident where I would cry because without that running around, there was no real bonding going on, he had no motivation or interest in anything else due to his difficulties.............UNTIL STEAM AND GAMING!!!.........He saw Broforce, asked for a go, BAM! We've done 604 hours so far and each hour, the bond got stronger and stronger. Gaming saved my relationship with my son, how goddamn awesome is that? lol

TL: DR, as promised: Shit went down.......Regardless, I want my kids to have it even better than I did as a child

Yeah, sorry, massive tangent there: I've done pretty much everything, turned out to be basically immortal, and I can relate better with my kids because of it all. Not that I'd recommend it as a parenting technique, obviously.