Dear SteamGifts community,

I'm sad to announce that I have made the decision to step down from creating / maintaining bundle threads starting 01 Jan 2025.
I am not quitting SteamGifts, but I will remain active only through comments and giveaways.


This might seem sudden for you, but it’s a decision I reached after lengthy consideration. For seven years, I’ve been the main person to create bundle threads and I would have probably been able to continue for many more, if not for some external factors that were out of my control.

2024 was one of the more difficult years of my life. I’ve continuously been the target of online harassment and untruthful / unfounded accusations, in many of these cases without a way for me to disprove them. I considered explaining myself many times, but past experience shows that those who seek to harm me aren’t looking for an explanation, and anything I dare to say in my defense would only be twisted into even worse lies. It’s understandable that without opening up and showing my side of the story, some of you might have negatively changed your opinion about me. This was a risk I knowingly took, as the least bad of the two options.

Seven years of doing bundle threads is a long time and aiming to keep these bundle threads as informative as possible and posting them close to the bundle launch time required a lot of sacrifices on my part. My sleep was the first one to be affected, as trying to be online when a bundle might (not necessarily would) launch often meant cutting down on my sleep, shifting the flow of my entire day (thus affecting the schedule of my family and friends too) or even scheduling trips in order to accommodate bundle threads as much as possible, all that not even knowing the bundle schedule in advance, as this is rarely made public. Obviously, no one forced me to do so, but in regards to bundle threads, I always wanted to give my best, and for me that meant first and foremost creating the thread as soon as possible, especially in the Humble BTA era - a habit that I continued even after it, throughout the years. Balancing bundle threads and work never was (and still isn't) an easy thing but at least it improved my ability to handle multiple mental tasks at the same time.

Aside from bundle thread creation, additional time went into maintaining these threads too: reading all the comments & continuously updating threads with the information you guys kindly share (coupons, subs, free DLC to claim, out of stock items, etc.). Together with my daily activities on Barter.vg (syncing this information between the two platforms was primarily done by me), these ate a significant chunk of my free time, similar to an unpaid part-time job. I’ve never received any monetary compensation for it, and I never wanted any compensation in the first place. My reason for doing this was always to help the two communities and keep the information as comprehensive as possible. It’s the kind of work that would be boring for most people, and get even more repetitive over the years, but I’m the kind of person who derives satisfaction and a feeling of stability from doing the same thing over and over again. I've always struggled to find my place in this world, but bundle threads (and Barter to some extent) gave me the feeling of contributing to society in a way that suited me.

Looking back at all these, I realized that a change is long overdue, as scary as that change might be. Firstly, due to the current online harassment situation, being a public person brings me more harm than I am willing to accept. Needless to say, I shouldn’t let myself be affected by what others think of me or say about me. To some extent I can do that but there’s still a line when too much hostility actually becomes… simply too much. Secondly, I’d like to allocate this time to something else. I’m not yet sure what that will be, for now I will keep myself open to possibilities and see what life has in stock for me.

As I step down from making bundle threads on SteamGifts, I also step down from Barter.vg. I’ve been the go-to person for most things on Barter during the past ~9 years, dealing with pretty much anything that was needed at the time when it was needed, filling every gap when there was no one else willing to do so. That may have made people mistaken me as an admin having full authority on Barter, and as a natural consequence, I attracted a certain amount of hate regarding some decisions that were taken during the recent years, while in reality those decisions were not mine to take. I’ve been held culpable and blamed for things that I didn’t even do. Different user groups have directly accused me of the exact nasty behavior that they themselves engage in, to justify the very same, and intentionally kept spreading those lies about me.

Much like SteamGifts, Barter.vg works solely on a volunteer-basis, with people assuming certain roles temporarily and performing them whenever they see fit or when their time allows. Without someone to be there when no one else is available or as a backup for them, Barter data (bundles, giveaways, items, notices) will probably see a decrease in consistency in the near future. At the moment of writing this, I can’t tell in what way the platform will change (or if it will in any way). Its future and shape is still in talks with the admin because there are several other factors to consider.

I’ll end this huge wall of text by expressing my heartfelt gratitude to all of you who supported me throughout the years. You were the reason for which I was able to continue doing this for so long. Thank you for the laughs we had together, for keeping the discussions on the bundle threads drama-free, for helping each other (and me) by answering questions, submitting region lock information, prices in different currencies and correcting my mistakes. Going forth, I hope you will show the same kindness and support to the people who will step up and continue doing this work.


🚂🚂🚂 A little train of various little indie games 🚂🚂🚂


🌟 2024-10-30: Edit: Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the kind words and positive energy you shared through these comments. Your response is beyond overwhelming. 💜

(I won't be able to reply to everyone, but I will try to answer some of these comments over the weekend.)


🌟 2024-12-08: A small update, mostly regarding my future activity on Barter.

3 months ago*

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Thank you so much for your work throughout the years. ❤️

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Deepest, sincerest thanks Lilly for all you did. I think like many people, even if I saw a new bundle launch, I'd always wait to see the thread here before I decide wether or not to buy it because the way the information was presented was always so good. I was always amazed by how quick you managed to be when posting.
As for the hideous trolls who made you their target, I saw glimpses of it and honestly it was disgusting. And it seemed like nothing could be said to turn them away. So I am really sorry that this was such a horrible way for your decision to be made. I'm not sure that steamgifts will be quite the same without your threads, but I hope we still see you around.

On a side note, why is this now the third time the person being helpful and creating deal threads has been bullied out of here. We really must take better care of these people.

3 months ago
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3 months ago
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Thanks for your amazing work!

3 months ago
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Wow. I'm quite saddened by the news. Your threads are about the only ones I read, and I cannot imagine bundle shopping for...anything game related...without first checking your threads. No one ever demanded that you post such a thread immediately (and if they did, they should be ignored!) Your threads are sometimes the primary reason I have for opening SG every day. CG should hire you to do it for pay, even if you made the thread significantly simpler.

Perhaps--this is just a thought--you could make a topic detailing every step you go thru in making the threads? A tutorial, if you will, for future Bundle Thread Creators?

Thank you so very much for your years of bundle threads!!!

Thank you for not leaving SG. Please ignore the haters and know that a vast (if quiet) majority have utmost faith in and respect for you, Lilly!

3 months ago
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ohhh nooo :ccccccc

3 months ago
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I don't know anything about any external drama nor do I particularly care to know; nothing justifies cruelty or harrassment, either online or in the real world, that causes consternation & grief to an actual person and I'm sorry you've had to endure such treatment simply for doing things that make this hobby easier for everyone.
Like everyone else here I'd just like to express my sincere thanks and appreciation for the seemingly Herculean task you've been performing, the wealth of information, comparisons and links (all available in a single glance!) have made investigating bundle options so easy yet authoritative at the same time. Because of the time difference on my end your threads are often the first way I discover new bundles when I check SG in the morning and while money's tight for me personally, the small number of purchases I've made have all been influenced by the tremendous work you've put into simplifying the marketing spiel and presenting the information concisely.
I wish you good tidings and mental health for whatever endeavours you tackle in the future, thank you for all that you've done 👍

3 months ago
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Thank you for all you did for both groups! I will surely miss your posts. I must admit, because I relied on you for that information because I knew I could trust you. But I fully understand your descision and wish you the best with your next endevours. I'm sorry to hear you had to go through that on your own. I hope it didn't affect you too much since i see you as a wonderful person. So don't let them get to you too much and keep your head high! Thank you again for everything, and sorry we all took it for granted what you did. 💖

3 months ago
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You are amazing, always visited your posts, at first I thought you were a bot due to your precision. Thank you

3 months ago
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Thank you for all the work you did :)

3 months ago
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😭I've been a fan of your work here for I don't even know how many years. Thank you for all you've done!

3 months ago
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Your chart maker is certainly the pioneer of it all - thank you for creating it, it's one of the essential tools for bundle threads creation and not only. Since the tool I use can't be publicly shared, your userscript might be soon needed again (depending on who will want to take over). I didn't check how easy it is to integrate the new ITAD API, hopefully it's possible without massive efforts.

Keep up the good work, I'm happy to see you more active these days.

2 months ago
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Thank you for everything you’ve done, your effort didn’t go unnoticed. I’m sorry about what happened to you. You’ll be missed in this role, but your decision is respectable. Wishing you all the best going forward!

3 months ago
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Thank you for all your hard work for the community.

3 months ago
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Thank you for all you’ve done for SteamGifts and Barter.vg. Your dedication to the community and the countless hours you’ve put into maintaining bundle threads have truly been invaluable. It’s deeply appreciated, and I’m sorry to hear about the challenges you’ve faced.

While you’ll be missed in this role, it’s good to know you’ll still be part of the community. Wishing you all the best as you move forward—your contributions won’t be forgotten.

3 months ago
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You've done a colossal job over the years.
Your choice to stop this activity is totally understandable. It's really sad to hear that you've been harassed.
I hope that you'll soon find new projects in which you can fulfil your potential with greater serenity.
Thanks for all!

3 months ago
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I can't express how much I appreciate your tireless work over the past 7 years. You're leaving gigantic shoes for us to fill. I'm saddened by your decision, but I fully understand and respect it. Your well-being and happiness should come first and foremost. Take care of yourself and see you around!

3 months ago
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Thank you so very much for all you did for SG - you did a great job!

Sad to see you "go", but it is understandable.

3 months ago
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Thanks a lot for your work sensualshakti and all the best for the future.

3 months ago
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I have only seen the result of your hard work, only had the pleasure of reaping the easy rewards of your work.
In my book, you are one of the really good ones. So it really saddens me to hear that some people misunderstand/trolls abuse you when it's not due.

So I understand completely and I wish you the best of luck with whatever will take your fancy going forward, I hope it will be something without such negative attchements so you can thoroghly enjoy your own activities once again.

Cheers, and hope to see you around here every now and then.

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I had no idea you were facing such a terrible situation. It seems that with some dedication and talent comes another side (harrassment - likely from envy). You sound like you have made a good decision and a positive step towards the next stage of your life. I know I have valued the work that you have done on Steamgifts and always quietly assumed you never slept, otherwise how else did you get all that work done?
I will just join the other posters in expressing my thanks for helping make Steamgifts such a great site and resource.
Best of luck with the next stage of your life :)

3 months ago
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Thank you for all your giant hard work, Lilly!
Bundles will no longer be bundles without you!

Don't listen to all those online bullies - just stay awesome, think positive and enjoy the deals-free life!

3 months ago
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Thank you so much for you hard work!
I hope you'll get a good rest now and I wish you good luck for the future 🥰💖

3 months ago
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Thanks for everything you did!

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3 months ago
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Thank you for all you've done. Online spaces can be exhausting, especially once people start expecting things from you.

3 months ago
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Thank you for your hard work. And sorry, not sorry for my spam.

I remember times before your threads and amount work you have done is amazing. It might be our turn to take it on again.

3 months ago
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Thank you for your amazing job!

And I hope everything will be fine with you.

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