September 9th, 2016

This won't be a traditional bundle thread with charts...

And this might be sudden and new...

But I have decided to leave Steam Gifts.


You might be asking... why? Or you might be feeling happy / confused /sad / etc.

I joined SG a year ago and I absolutely loved it. It brings me a lot of joy being able to assist others. I devote a lot of my life towards volunteer-work and meeting new people, and the past year that I've been on SG has given me the chance to reach out to people across the world through a virtual platform and a love for gaming, good deals, and friendship.

But ... I have been thinking a lot lately... and I believe it would be best for my well-being to leave Steam Gifts and move on to other opportunities.

Steam Gifts has brought me a lot of happiness and friendships, but as of lately, there has also been a lot of negativity, hatred, and criticism.

You might say that this is normal, that life is full of good and bad. That I must grow up, not take things so personally, and face reality, that I can't please everyone and be liked by everyone. That there are haters, friends, lovers, and acquaintances.

I understand that completely. It is not the criticism that has made me decide to leave. But at this time being, this isn't a very healthy environment me to remain in. I have found much support here, but it also has brought me many painful feelings and loss. Lately, much has been weighing on my in my personal life, and it has been hard for me to become more involved on Steam Gifts knowing that I may be facing more opposition and negativity. Many of whom I considered friends have turned their backs on me; and the ongoing hostility in so many areas here has made me reconsider my place here on Steam Gifts. I have placed a lot of value on the friendships and the work that I've helped contribute to here. Because I value the people here very much, I also feel a great deal of pain and hurt.

But, I am not bitter for the experiences I've had. I will cherish all the memories and friends I've made.

I never posted charts and announcements for attention.

I never wanted to take "reign" or "control" Steamgifts. And I never have meant to come off as superficial, aggressive, or that I wanted control of anything. Over time though, it seemed that people felt that was the case. And although there are many of you who still do see the value in my work and my efforts (efforts and time and energy that I want to spend on all of you because I CARE, not because I want to be the spotlight or center of attention), I have become weary and a bit broken by the other side of the story, a darkness that continues to grow despite everything.

I am not asking for any pity, or attention, and I do not post this in order to make people feel bad or sorry for me. All I want is for everyone to be happy, healthy, and friendly.


I thank all of you who still believe in me and consider me a good person. Thank you for being patient, kind, considerate, and supportive. Thank you for showing me what a family of online community members is. Thank you for filling my days with fun, laughter, smiles, and good conversations. Thank you for being here for me and a place for me to be myself and share my personality and my desire to help all of you. Thank you for accepting me as "Rachellove" and as an individual. Thank you for trusting me to post bundles and letting me know of them as well.

I am sorry to leave all of you, but I want each and every one of you all to know that I do still care about you and consider you a family.

Thank you again for allowing me to have a presence in your lives. It has been a great honor to serve all of you and to have been a point of trust at some point or the other by allowing me to create these bundle threads and being myself. I appreciate all the love, concern, and friendship that you have shown me. I will never forget those who I have met here and have become close to.

May you all find joy, good health, and success in your lives. That is all I ask in return, and that would make me most at ease and happy knowing the people I care about are doing well.


Please Note:

It is not the stress or overwhelming work of thread-making that has informed my decision to leave. I make time to do these threads, and they really don't stress me out.

Many people have offered to help me before, to which I have accepted. I do not work alone. I have had many of you help me with charts, help me with errors, help with hints, etc. I want to thank all of you for keeping me informed, updated, and on my toes. My life has always been busy, but I have tried to make time for these threads and I take pride in being able to help others, as well as being trusted to be a helper.

I will not be maintaining any remaining bundle threads that I have made, including the Master List of Ongoing Bundles - w/ RaCharts™. However, I trust that many wonderful people after me will be willing to continue to help with bundle threads and make beautiful charts to help all of you in your bundle / game puchasing.


I will leave this thread up, but I won't be actively responding to any messages or comments. If you could, I would appreciate if you also do not message me on Steam as well. I know this might sound a bit harsh, but this has been a hard decision to make, and I ask for some privacy at this time. Thank you ❤

8 years ago*

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Farewell, Rachel, and thank you for your time and generosity. Best wishes for everything ahead.

8 years ago
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I always loved seeing your threads, it's kind of sad to see this. Will you return at some point though, or not?

8 years ago
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rachellove -> rachellost :(

8 years ago
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Wishing the best dear friend to you and your loved ones...Don't worry about random people in internet just focus on what makes you happy..and if steamgifts doesnt make you happy anymore follow your heart and find something more interesting!

8 years ago
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These threads are always strange.

8 years ago
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:( Thank you for all you have done for the steamgifts community, hopefully you'll get some more time back in your life for more fun :)

8 years ago
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I always used your threads to compare bundles even though I never said anything. I wish you the best. I also whitelisted you in case you ever return. Thanks for all the work! o/

8 years ago
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Goodbye Rachel (。•́︿•̀。)ノ

We will miss you soo much. And certainly not 'just' for the countless bundle threads you made over the past year. Even more we'll miss you as the awesome, caring person with the big heart, always helpful, generous and a shining light of positivity, which this place is in such a need of.

I always knew the bundle threads will end some day. That was just too much of work for a single person, I am still amazed how you got it all done and nearly always within minutes of a new bundle release.
That kind of dedication, 'just' to help people buying some games, was exemplary.
And I bet all the answered question and additional assistance have saved the bundle sites quite a few support requests. You should've deserved some compensation from them ;-)

But I always hoped you'll stay around even without the bundles. It hits me hard to see you leave completely (ಥ﹏ಥ)
I'd hope for, maybe, at some point you may reconsider, and just say Hi!
No obligations, no need for anything, either threads or GAs, just do whatever you want to.

It will always be your choice and I respect and support you in any case.
So, I wish you good health, all the happiness and good luck in your next endeavors.

8 years ago
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Thanks a lot for everything Ra-chan, your friendship, dedication and kindness. Take good care of yourself. Pleasure was us to meet you ^_^ .

8 years ago
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I texted you but didn't really get chance to message you on here.

Even if certain members want to say horrible things, you were clearly appreciated by the overwhelming majority. I'd love to see you back sometime soon, I'll always defend you where I can!

You know where I am if you want to chat, much love!

Ally

8 years ago
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Glad to see you moving on to greater things.

Based on your Steam profile I know there are so many people whose lives you will improve. SG doesn't need you. The people in your community need you. The more time you spend on here, the less time you are spending working towards all the great goals you have.

I sincerely wish you the best of luck and truly hope you achieve greatness.

-Trav

8 years ago
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Thanks for your time and effort! :-)

8 years ago
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WE love you

8 years ago
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You'll be sorely missed.

8 years ago
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Thanks for keeping all those bundles in check.

8 years ago
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The worst thing in life is that the 2% of people who do nothing but complain make a lot of noise and over time you feel like everyone is complaining when really it's just a few people. We must learn to ignore them so that we can seek out and enjoy the 98% of happy quiet people.

I learned that from being a Guild/Raid leader in World of Warcraft :P

8 years ago
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so sad...

8 years ago
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This saddens me A LOT... that such a vibrant and cool member of the community has felt burnt or aggravated by a lot of toxicity in the community, just wtf is wrong with people :(

Well if you ever read this, let it be known that you will be sorely missed Rachel, I think it will be hard for a lot of us to ever forget about you and your big help in bundle reporting to all of us! Much love to you, rachellove.

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8 years ago
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+1 to every single positive and appreciative reply to you on this thread, my dear. Best wishes and best of luck in wherever life takes you, in the physical world and the internet world.

I was much more active a year ago than I am now, but a combination of things had me falling silent and withdrawing. I have spurts where I will not come to SG for a week or month. And sometimes I will come back, semi active. I have games set aside, I keep thinking I will make giveaways for, to celebrate my 1000th steam game... but then... I just remember everything and excitement for a giveaway train turns into "meh".

8 years ago
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Your bundle threads were the only reason I checked everyday the forums.
Thanks for your hard work Rachel, you will be missed.

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Wish you luck in a new way of life thank for the thread

8 years ago
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I could write a lot but since it's just my pointless opinion I will keep it short:

You will be missed. I wish you the best of luck and much happyness in your life. You deserve that.

8 years ago
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I'm sorry to see you leave dear Rachel! :(

I know how you feel, I've been going through some personal stuff too lately and been feeling really down, but SG and Steam keep me occupied and divert my thoughts from problems.
I am really sorry that you don't find SG a safe place anymore and sorry to hear that you were betrayed by some friends even. :( I know how that feels too, ( to be betrayed by those you trust and realise they are not who you thought they were) from before on another forum that I had to leave because of that . I haven't encountered much drama here but then again I haven't had time to browse the forums for the last month or so, due to personal stuff.

Know that I will always be there for you and that you can count on me. Feel free to chat me up if you need to talk.

Hugs, your friend Dalilah.<3

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8 years ago
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enjoyed looking at the boards and seeing if any new bundles were released, shame if people were really giving you crap about keeping the bundle listings up to date.. meh, sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do.

take care and don't let haters get your down..

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