This isn't a bundle thread ...

September 9th, 2016

This won't be a traditional bundle thread with charts...

And this might be sudden and new...

But I have decided to leave Steam Gifts.

You might be asking... why? Or you might be feeling happy / confused /sad / etc.

I joined SG a year ago and I absolutely loved it. It brings me a lot of joy being able to assist others. I devote a lot of my life towards volunteer-work and meeting new people, and the past year that I've been on SG has given me the chance to reach out to people across the world through a virtual platform and a love for gaming, good deals, and friendship.

But ... I have been thinking a lot lately... and I believe it would be best for my well-being to leave Steam Gifts and move on to other opportunities.

Steam Gifts has brought me a lot of happiness and friendships, but as of lately, there has also been a lot of negativity, hatred, and criticism.

You might say that this is normal, that life is full of good and bad. That I must grow up, not take things so personally, and face reality, that I can't please everyone and be liked by everyone. That there are haters, friends, lovers, and acquaintances.

I understand that completely. It is not the criticism that has made me decide to leave. But at this time being, this isn't a very healthy environment me to remain in. I have found much support here, but it also has brought me many painful feelings and loss. Lately, much has been weighing on my in my personal life, and it has been hard for me to become more involved on Steam Gifts knowing that I may be facing more opposition and negativity. Many of whom I considered friends have turned their backs on me; and the ongoing hostility in so many areas here has made me reconsider my place here on Steam Gifts. I have placed a lot of value on the friendships and the work that I've helped contribute to here. Because I value the people here very much, I also feel a great deal of pain and hurt.

But, I am not bitter for the experiences I've had. I will cherish all the memories and friends I've made.

I never posted charts and announcements for attention.

I never wanted to take "reign" or "control" Steamgifts. And I never have meant to come off as superficial, aggressive, or that I wanted control of anything. Over time though, it seemed that people felt that was the case. And although there are many of you who still do see the value in my work and my efforts (efforts and time and energy that I want to spend on all of you because I CARE, not because I want to be the spotlight or center of attention), I have become weary and a bit broken by the other side of the story, a darkness that continues to grow despite everything.

I am not asking for any pity, or attention, and I do not post this in order to make people feel bad or sorry for me. All I want is for everyone to be happy, healthy, and friendly.

I thank all of you who still believe in me and consider me a good person. Thank you for being patient, kind, considerate, and supportive. Thank you for showing me what a family of online community members is. Thank you for filling my days with fun, laughter, smiles, and good conversations. Thank you for being here for me and a place for me to be myself and share my personality and my desire to help all of you. Thank you for accepting me as "Rachellove" and as an individual. Thank you for trusting me to post bundles and letting me know of them as well.

I am sorry to leave all of you, but I want each and every one of you all to know that I do still care about you and consider you a family.

Thank you again for allowing me to have a presence in your lives. It has been a great honor to serve all of you and to have been a point of trust at some point or the other by allowing me to create these bundle threads and being myself. I appreciate all the love, concern, and friendship that you have shown me. I will never forget those who I have met here and have become close to.

May you all find joy, good health, and success in your lives. That is all I ask in return, and that would make me most at ease and happy knowing the people I care about are doing well.

Please Note:

It is not the stress or overwhelming work of thread-making that has informed my decision to leave. I make time to do these threads, and they really don't stress me out.

Many people have offered to help me before, to which I have accepted. I do not work alone. I have had many of you help me with charts, help me with errors, help with hints, etc. I want to thank all of you for keeping me informed, updated, and on my toes. My life has always been busy, but I have tried to make time for these threads and I take pride in being able to help others, as well as being trusted to be a helper.

I will not be maintaining any remaining bundle threads that I have made, including the Master List of Ongoing Bundles - w/ RaCharts™. However, I trust that many wonderful people after me will be willing to continue to help with bundle threads and make beautiful charts to help all of you in your bundle / game puchasing.

I will leave this thread up, but I won't be actively responding to any messages or comments. If you could, I would appreciate if you also do not message me on Steam as well. I know this might sound a bit harsh, but this has been a hard decision to make, and I ask for some privacy at this time. Thank you ❤