No worries kid, all is gonna be just fine. Take your time and tell or write anything you need. It is all right. Do what you need to do.

As one suicidal person to another, care needs to come 2-ways. Your OP doesn't exactly instill confidence that it's entirely their fault, you know.
As for myself, I fully know well not to ask help on the internet, really. Don't. You're just making stuff worse.

I am SO sorry that you feel this way right now: none of us deserve this.

I am in a deep place myself right now and can relate to a lot you are going through.

My strong advise: get help!
Did that already?
Maybe you need other/more help.

Medicines alone aren't going to cut it.
You really need a good therapist as well.

I see a lot of anger in you: you are literary lashing out.
Anger is a very strong emotion that can keep you going and fueled for a very long time.
But in the end it can and will consume you!
Don't let that happen.

Depression is nasty, it can feel like living with a dark cloud in your head.
Thinking with a clouded head gives you a clouded vision.

As said: you are lashing out.
Try and take a step back and ask yourself: "Why am I doing this?'
There is something behind and beneath this anger.
And yes, being angry is often a way to blame the rest of the world.

And you know what? Maybe that blame is partly justified!
But......changing the world is impossible!
Changing yourself, the way you cope with shitty RL stuff, your perception of the world, working through your emotions etc. etc. might just be doable!
But slowly and with baby steps and with the help of a therapist and maybe some meds, cause an imbalanced brain sometimes needs a little help too.

I hope your lashing out is a first step, as it is clear you don't want this!
I don't blame you for lashing out, I know the feeling behind it all too well.

Life is NOT easy and often unfair.
But I hope you will find the help you need and the will to continue living.

Take care.

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Hi Jennifer.

First: I imagine when you were writing this, you probably felt like you didn't care whether anybody responded - but actually, you wouldn't have bothered if that was really the case. You probably feel like you don't want anybody to try and help you, but really, you just don't want somebody to fail you, so you're scared for them to even try. And, there are some good responses here from people who really want to reach out to you. It might seem pointless, but seriously, you should start a conversation with someone who stands out from the posts.

Second: You're not alone. By which I don't mean "we're all here for you", but "there are millions of people who are suffering right now". I'd say that by far the best way to deal with your problems is to help others with theirs. I highly recommend that you volunteer at a soup kitchen, or community centre, or church outreach or whatever. Or don't even volunteer, just go and listen to people's stories. If you keep focusing on yourself, things will only seem worse and worse - but if you focus on others, it can't help but transform your perspective on your own problems. Honestly, it works.

Third, and perhaps most importantly: Fuck you too, Jennifer! Fuck you too. :)

Seriously, are SG users too used to drama now that they can't make normal fucking threads?

What have I even done to you?

Well that's just not fair, I hate most people too.

Hmmm. No one knows you. And probably nobody cares about what you are going trough, because no one knows you. Some might care slightly, but not in the level of what you expect.

If attention is what you need, call some one that really cares, like a friend, or family, or social workers (not that they really care, but thats what they do). Else you can receive a wide range of comments in the internet, you cant control the comments. And most likely wont be sending happy feelings.Dont blame the world about your issues, as the world doesnt need to know them.

Fuck You All

Aaah, fucking... It would be so fun...

I told you in a giveaway of mine (party saboteurs) that you could always ask me to play a game if you wanted to play together, and i can't give you much of a chat because i am not always talkative.
But i seen a couple of people offering that chat to people who have it difficult, if you just asked them.

To be honest i didn't even know about the change and i asked someone last week, where the old you was until someone pointed me to your new profile, even though you commented a few times before that, i did not even had a clue.
There are alot of people here and each will have their own life too, but i am sure if you want (and make some effort too) you will find people wanting to listen and have a chat with you, and maybe become a friend.

Life can suck (While i atleast have a supporting family, roof over my head and food atleast, alot of bad things happened to me too, in a lifetime double your age, with ways of also being alone (so many real "friends" that you couldn't trust, i only have 1 real life female friend now, for years, and 3 very kind ones through steam, who i never met in real life and probably never will, so i do know that feeling a bit) and yes even some people you come across will suck (Sometimes that can be a good thing).
But fortunately there are still good people out there too, you just haven't met them yet.
It will go both ways, even if you keep asking 10 guys who don't want to Netflix (or whatever it was) with you, ask a 11th person, hard as it can be.

Let's be alone together🎵🎵

Cool story, bro.

When i read this post:

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Wow. Damn. Salt. Wut.

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People who understand your situation have already said everything. What I can add? :) I'm also struggling with recurring depression, although now I have a much better period in my life. From experience I know that showing this publicly is a bad solution. This way you only discourage people and they are starting to avoid you. Besides there are always be haters. If you want to change something, only you can do it, no one else. Change the approach, stop thinking about bad things especially those you have no influence on and just try be happy. It's your life so don't waste time for sorrow.

I have not much to say except that I feel like that a lot of times and listening to music or watching a movie always helps. It takes my mind off the things that worry me or make me angry. Reading a good book can also help.

op forgot to say who is the target of his protest...but pls, donm't be fool and don't do something stupid.i beg you..keep fighting against your target.

I think that people here said a lot of good things, much better than I could have said. There are people here who care about you personally, people who understand you because they've been there, and want you to get better, and people who just don't like seeing others hurting.