Hello SG! Slayer Bundle GA -> here, Lv 2+ sgtools basic
Sorry for my BlueHearts for not making more GAs.

It has been around 4 months since i have been active here. As some of my close friends here know i have moved to Singapore for my Masters in Financial Engineering(NTU) amongst other stuff, I have not been myself lately.
A big chip off my shoulder was the successful liver transplant for my father after a streak of bad health since 2008. He is thankfully doing well and will be back home the day my giveaways end.
Not to sound selfish, his illness had been a part of my life and now that he is better, I can get back to my life, but honestly it is not really easy. Most of my friends have moved on in career, married, settled down or just in a good place. I seem to just start and that fact is really bothering me. Almost all the time!

My social life has withered, physique is not looking too good as well and I just feel left out. In my under graduate years it was just the stark opposite and maybe that's why it hurts more. So frustrated that I uninstalled Steam and all of the 20 odd games i had installed. (Withdrawal symptoms, much?)

I used to be the guy who would read such posts like this and think why do people need to write this here. Now I truly understand one needs to just vent it out somewhere.
I used to think how can people not pull their pants up and face life head on. Now I realize it sure is difficult if you are inside the bubble.

I really wished some sort of a partner to be around for emotional support, and how conveniently that would translate into a girlfriend. But good things don't really happen around bad aura. So on a regular day I wake up , be anxious about having to complete a ridiculously difficult masters course which i am close to flunking; be anxious about having to put my own health back on track; be anxious about having no one to talk to; and be very very anxious about finding a job/internship since i really need one right now.

How do i currently deal with it? Binge on Netflix(Black Mirror or something) , cook instant noodles and eggs, and when out of eggs, I order McD. A younger me would be happy at this arrangement. But now it surely seems depressing.

UPDATE: My parents moved back to our home today after the long stay at hospital (medical conditions all good for now) , and it was in a not so great condition. A few busted water pipes, out of action kitchen, the works. Doing my best to help by ordering cleanup services etc.
I am overwhelmed and thankful to the response of fellow SG'ters.
I know everyone has shit hurled at them in life, but it truly sucks to be at the receiving end. As for my routine, I hope the withdrawal phase is over, and am looking forward to start painting this week.
For what it's worth, I just wanna gulp down the anger/disappointment/? and move on. :-)
Appropriately named GA for the feels

Thanks for the read if you actually did. Means something.

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Other people have already said many things. Look for what seems helpful from among those. As a "survivor" of Life™, I will offer a few "tips" of my own.

  1. The only thing that can truly stop you is your own attitude. Be positive, and keep moving forward. Seek solutions, not excuses.
  2. The past cannot be changed, so learn from it, don't live in it. The future is unknown, so plan for it, don't fear it. The present is where we are, so live in it, take action in it.
  3. Each day is a new chance to move in the direction you want to go. As long as you don't give up, you will continue to move closer to your goals.
  4. There is always more than one way to reach your goals. Keep your eyes open for alternatives.
  5. Use your Support Networks. Whether that is family/friends for emotional support, or colleagues/fellows for occupational support, enlist other people to overcome life's obstacles. Only a fool takes on the world by himself.
  6. Finding employment is a job unto itself. Treat it like one. Plan for it, work on it, use all available tools you own. The most important tool for seeking employment is your network, the people you know and meet. They get you the job.
  7. When you don't know what else to do, talk to your Elders. (Actually, you should be speaking with them often.) Whether it is your parent or Mr. Has-the-Job-I-Eventually-Want-for-Myself, these people have been where you are and have found their way through. Learn from them.

P.S. (You want to get your head straight before looking for "a partner." "People with issues" get together with other "people with issues." Well-adjusted people seek well-adjusted partners, and that is what you want. You don't need money or fame, you just need to have your character sorted out, your goals clear, and to be pursuing them.)

6 years ago*
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First off, thanks for taking the time to write at length! Much appreciated! <3
"Only a fool takes on the world by himself." very true! and much relevant in my case..
"Finding employment is a job unto itself" Its like you are reading my mind Khalaq!

as for the partners I totally agree.. I am not looking to rush into anything in my current state of mind/attitude. It would definitely be unhealthy..
I have started painting as a means to keep off Steam and Netflix for now.. hope to make good progress soon.
Thanks and love!

6 years ago
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There's this saying that you should go at your own pace. Not everyone goes thru life the same way. Good to hear about your father and hope you are able to deal with this in a manner that you approve (not influenced by others, I mean).

P.S. I have dealt with something similar and a partner does surely help.

6 years ago
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Thanks for your words of encouragement!
I will try to sort the mess that i am and then maybe look for a partner :D
Cheers!

6 years ago
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Cheers Gamma. All the best. Keep your chin up :)

6 years ago
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Thanks a lot Vampus! Will do! :D
Cheers!

6 years ago
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Best of luck to you! Everything should become better eventually. Just keep going and don't lose hope!

6 years ago
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Thanks a lot! \m/
Cheers Saucisse!

6 years ago
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Bump.

6 years ago
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Thanks!

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Thanks!

6 years ago
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I heartily endorse what Khalaq said, especially the P.S. I've been around long enough and looked for the same many times, and Khalaq is right that you need to have your head right, first. Having the relief of your father's progress returning to health, I think focusing on finishing that difficult degree is the focus. You think it sounds boring, but you are on a path to the career, and then things will really open up to opportunity. Right now, a tight focus on that, and your distractions can be in doses to allow that degree completion.

Good luck and best to your father in his journey to health!

6 years ago
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I wholly endorse the two of you on this. :D
Thanks and cheers CelticBatman! <3

6 years ago
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Bump!

6 years ago
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Thanks!

6 years ago
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Bumf

6 years ago
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Thanks!

6 years ago
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Indeed, being left behind in careers, or family/partners path in life can cause a rift in topics, it's not all that bad after a while if you stick close to a few friends. Maybe that's because I'm not very social to begin with but I'm sure after you start picking it up, things can turn for the better quite quickly. Having a family member's health be steady is easily understood by everyone so you may find friends to be more understanding than you think.

6 years ago
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Thanks for your kind words and understanding SnowyK!
I hope to turn it around soon! :)
also happy cakeday!

6 years ago
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What you said......I know how your situation is making you feel.

As I'm typing this and reading your story, a peculiar song popped up on spotify coincidentally.... One that I will always cherish because everytime I feel this way, I listen to The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. I take these lyrics to heart. Listening to it always helps bring me up. It's sort of my remedy (though, no, it doesn't cure my depression fit, it does help me get through the day), and hopefully it can also be your remedy too.

Sometimes you just need a place to vent. And you need to be heard. You said your social life has withered. Help it bloom. You might feel shitty while out there in the beginning as residue, but proactively doing so might help just that. I know it's hard, but if you can, try to act on it and battle what's gnawing at you.

<3

6 years ago
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Thanks for the nice song recommendation!
I can see what you really mean by " I take these lyrics to heart ".
Well its true. without venting its a pressure chamber inside, waiting to explode at the wrong time/place.
Thanks for the support to help fight off the inner demons..
Cheers and love <3

6 years ago
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bump again!

6 years ago
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Thanks ManyFacedGod! Cool name! haha

6 years ago
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The first step towards achieving your goals is getting rid of procrastination. It can be hard but it's very rewarding once accomplished.
Also, accept your past and your present and work proactively towards a better future. Good luck!

6 years ago
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Very true! Procrastination has been the devil for me these days!
thanks for your wishes! :D

6 years ago
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Bump because I believe you can pull yourself together.

6 years ago
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Thanks so much ercalote! <3

6 years ago
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Just listen to your heart and start with something small but important.

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6 years ago
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Started painting this week! and table tennis! :D
thanks for the cute gif!

6 years ago
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There's some good advice here, but this is the internet, everyone has an opinion about everything. Most of us know very little about you, but still some people will give you answers to problems that can't be solved without the important insight about your life, situation, challenges, etc, that only you (possibly along with family, close ones, etc) are sitting on. If you can find advice here that's helpful to you, then that's absolutely great, learn from it, and if your ego (we all have it in varying degrees) tells you not to listen because then you'd have to admit to being wrong or doing something wrong, say "screw you, ego" and try your best to be humble and open to new ideas. Otherwise, take all of this, including my comment, with a grain of salt. We're all just trying to help, even when we're not helpful.

Oh, and in case you're often frustrated with yourself for not achieving your goals, take it easy on yourself, accept your challenges/shortcomings, and take baby steps towards getting there, while acknowledging all the little things that you do better than before. Otherwise it's easy to overreach.

If you weren't looking for advice, but was merely wanting to vent, that's fine, too. To quote AloofPanda, "Sometimes you just need a place to vent. And you need to be heard." This is very true. I can definitely relate to a lot of what you're going through. Hang in there, buddy! :)

6 years ago
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Thanks for the words of encouragement, and being very frank with your opinion!
I am taking baby steps to improve my health currently and tbh your post gives me the impetus to say "eh fuck it" to things i was confused on earlier .. :D
Cheers!

6 years ago
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That's good to hear. Yes! Some times it's important to say that to yourself! ^^
Have a great week!

6 years ago
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I could say a lot of stuff but english is not my thing... I just hope everything gets improved for you, and I'm glad your father is recovering and will be back to home and normal life soon.

6 years ago
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Thanks a lot for your wishes josgba!

6 years ago
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Like others says, wow, you're in great place and have good education 😊 If you want to get in shape just do it, walk around neighbourhood, do grocery shopping in order to eat good food other than junk food. With healthy body comes healthy mind.

Don't let insecurities let you down, like when see your friends they have families, nice career, everyone don't have same pace. Hope you and your father have nice recovery, keep positive and playing games 😉

6 years ago
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Thanks for your wishes! :D
I hope to do well as everyone, but yeah, everyone is different!
Ahh games... i dunno when next, but still <3

6 years ago
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Hang in there! When the exams are over one way or the other, life will pick up again.
Having a sick parent drains a lot of energy. As you wrote, with him better now, it hopefully will be easier as well.

6 years ago
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Thanks for your words! It sure is draining, but i suppose all of us face such issues.. Cheers!

6 years ago
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Don't worry bro life always tests your patience and determination but remember there always a light at the end of a dark tunnel.so hold on to yourself you just need to survive a little longer and one push you can break yourself from these troubles.all the best my wishes to you.hope your life improves soon :)

6 years ago
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Thanks bro!
Hope you are doing great! College started for you?

6 years ago
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Nah bro didn't join, went to a job then left the job and now trying to do something let's see

6 years ago
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Oh its good to try out stuff now! best wishes !
You have my new whatsapp number right?

6 years ago
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Thx bro Yeah you send me a message about your new number.so if you hadn't changed that then yes. And best wishes to you too let's consider your father coming home as a sign of good things to come :)

6 years ago
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Venting and having a good social life is very important. Its hard though to built these social nets these days with all the social media and everyone always being on their phones (dang i sound like my mother lol) but its true! So go ahead and leave it here, but keep working on it and it will come! :) And although its very hard, its really important to eat healty, youll probably feel a bit better already :D Good luck!

6 years ago
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Thanks vleker!
No its very true what you say. Also healthy eating is a priority for me now! Cheers!

6 years ago
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Good to hear! Good luck!! ;)

6 years ago
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i really now what means to be anxious all the time, the only advice i can give: find something like gym to escape everything, or some hobby.

6 years ago
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I used to escape with gaming online. But trying to find something healthier now. Will start painting for instance this week. :|

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Saw it now. Seems relatable! Thanks a lot!

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